So, I woke up late this morning-and was again, in a terrible mood. I knew there was no way I could make it through another day like yesterday. That would just be awful. I settled down to the WORD with a really lousy attitude as well. I opened up to Hebrews 12, and thought, "I've read this so many times before. There isn't going to be anything here for what I need."
    And what do you know? Twelve things I needed.... right there. BAM.

#1-"let us lay aside every weight"- last night, the Lord had been revealing to me that I was allowing things to become gods in my life, idols. Here was a call for those idols to be revealed and taken down, lain aside. I did that... the Lord was quick to reveal those things. I knew they were being a distraction. And, I let them "burn" so to speak.

#2-"let us run with patience." Nope, I've been running like a chicken w/ my head cut off, overwhelmed and weary. The Bible says to not be weary in well doing. In 1 Corinthians 15:58, it says, "be ye stedfast, unmoveable, always abounding in the work of the Lord." instead, I've been shaken by every little thing and abounding in the flesh. Lord, forgive me.

#3-"Looking unto Jesus." Have I been? No... I've been looking on to my circumstances and uncertainties and frustrations and my iPod. I need a changed perspective.

#4-"lest you be wearied and discouraged in your minds." Why am I relying on other things? It is making me weary and discouraged. "He gives power to the faint..." -ISAIAH 40:29-31

#5-"Despise not the chastening of the Lord, nor be faint when you are rebuked of Him." And there is was-the moment I realized the Lord was trying to get my attention and discipline me. I was way out of line. I hadn't thought I was-no, I was blaming the problems on circumstances or other people, but NOT ME. But, I was wrong-so wrong and so out of line.

#6-"No chastisement for the present seems joyous, but grievous; never the less, afterwards, it yields the peaceable fruit of righteousness." Yes, there is purpose even when God is disciplining me.

#7- "Follow peace with all men." I definitely haven't been doing that. I have had such a bad attitude and causing issues with my family. Just being a real brat.

#8- "Follow holiness"-yep, definitely haven't been doing that the last few days. I've been following the flesh.

#9- "Looking diligently." Wait, diligently? That hasn't even been a word in my vocabulary the last few days; More like lazy, self-centered, and flesh controlled.

#10-"Lest any root of bitterness springing up trouble you." Wow, funny-I had just been admitting to a friend the other day that I had noticed some seeds of bitterness within my heart because of various circumstances. "Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamour and evil speaking be put away from you with all malice." -Eph. 4:31

#11- "Let us have grace..." hm, grace has also not been something in my vocabulary lately. I've been finding faults with everyone, tearing others apart and myself as well. Lord, I need Your grace... especially for other people.

#12- "Serve God acceptably with reverence and fear." That just put the nail in the coffin-there isn't anything else that needs to be said. Serve God acceptably with reverence and fear.

How off I have been.
And that was the spanking...
It was a good solid one, that's for sure.

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