Jul. 19, 2008 - As The Days Go By....
I have not been on here in quite a while. The days have been flying by here... only four full days left here, and then two days in the car, and then I'll be home-and my summer in Missouri (my six weeks-exactly 42 days) will be over. Sigh... that's the only thing I can think to say. I do miss home... a lot; I miss my bedroom, my family, my life as it normally is. But, I so dread saying goodbye to Chelsea again. I don't know why it has to be so hard. Every time, I tell myself I'll be fine. It'll be okay... life will go on. But, every time, it's hard. And every time, I hate it. I can already tell that I am losing it... as these last two days, I have already struggled with being edgy and having weird emotions going on. I kind of just want it to be over. I don't want to experience these next few days. I just want it to be Friday already so I can be home and this can be over with. And yet I know, if I so choose, the Lord will have so much for me in these coming days. And His glory can shine, because it will not be me... I have no strength left. I am a mess... I don't want to face these days. I don't want to feel these things. I don't want to go through the things I know I must... so it will be His strength and His joy and His spirit working in me. For that I am excited.
This past week, I cannot think that we did anything particularly exciting. In fact, this last week was so crazy... with Mr. and Mrs. Stearns out of town for two days, we were left in charge of the house and kids. It would've been all right, except that we ended up working on a farm all day Wednesday, and we were gone from 8:30-5; that just left everyone a mess.
Tuesday was a good day... Chels and I had our pictures taken by our dear friend Caity here... we had a lot of fun, and the pictures turned out fabulously. Lord willing, they'll be ready by the time we leave on Wednesday.
Thursday, we went to the Freeman's house for dinner and games, and I got to ride a horse for the very first time ever! It was so awesome... and I want to do it again and again and again! It was so much fun. We also played hide and seek like little kids...=) and then a rousing game of Uno and Twister. It was much fun, quite enjoyable, and even better to see Mr. and Mrs. Stearns when we arrived home at 9:30-all tired and completely worn out.
Yesterday, Chels and I wanted to get out of the house so after we practiced worship for Sunday, we went to Walmart, bought some food and printed pictures, and then we went to the park and had a picnic together. It was a peaceful, enjoyable, and greatly conversational two hours. It was a sweet time, praise the Lord. Then we came home, and turned around and when back to the same park to go swimming with the kids. Last night, we made pudding parfaits for dinner dessert, and we attempted to make whipped cream-but the cream didn't seem to be heavy enough, so it didn't work out real well. After that, around 8, me and Chelsea went for a walk... it must have been 3 miles or so. We didn't get back until 9. I thought the dog was going to die... it was such a long walk, and poor Lily was convulsing when we got home because she was so tired! =) but, she is fine now.
Today, Chels and Jonny are working for the last time (Jonny forever and Chels until September), and everyone else went off to an auction. I stayed back as I only got out of bed a half hour before they left, and I was in need of some serious quiet time with the Lord and some quiet time in general. There isn't a lot of quiet in this house, at least compared to mine. At first, it really didn't bother me, but now it's getting harder with the amount of noise here. But, that's okay.
Tomorrow will be fun...we have church, we get to do worship together for the last time (sad morning it'll be...); and then we have a party at the Bale's farm to go to. Monday and Tuesday are going to be insane. We have our last minute shopping for New York, scrubbing the house top to bottom, packing all our stuff, and loading everything for 6 people into the minivan. Wednesday, we plan to leave at 6 in the morning and drive ten hours to just north of Columbia, OH where we will stay for the night in a nice hotel with a indoor swimming pool! =) And then up again on Thursday to drive 7 more hours to home... home...
I am both way looking forward to it and dreading it all at the same time...
And I am quite bummed because my mom and sister are leaving for Arizona on Wednesday, so even though I'll be home on Thursday, I won't see them until the following Tuesday.
Well, I think this is all...please pray for us all here, for the Lord's peace and for strength and for grace... and for comfort for me and Chels, because we both dread this goodbye as always.
This past week, I cannot think that we did anything particularly exciting. In fact, this last week was so crazy... with Mr. and Mrs. Stearns out of town for two days, we were left in charge of the house and kids. It would've been all right, except that we ended up working on a farm all day Wednesday, and we were gone from 8:30-5; that just left everyone a mess.
Tuesday was a good day... Chels and I had our pictures taken by our dear friend Caity here... we had a lot of fun, and the pictures turned out fabulously. Lord willing, they'll be ready by the time we leave on Wednesday.
Thursday, we went to the Freeman's house for dinner and games, and I got to ride a horse for the very first time ever! It was so awesome... and I want to do it again and again and again! It was so much fun. We also played hide and seek like little kids...=) and then a rousing game of Uno and Twister. It was much fun, quite enjoyable, and even better to see Mr. and Mrs. Stearns when we arrived home at 9:30-all tired and completely worn out.
Yesterday, Chels and I wanted to get out of the house so after we practiced worship for Sunday, we went to Walmart, bought some food and printed pictures, and then we went to the park and had a picnic together. It was a peaceful, enjoyable, and greatly conversational two hours. It was a sweet time, praise the Lord. Then we came home, and turned around and when back to the same park to go swimming with the kids. Last night, we made pudding parfaits for dinner dessert, and we attempted to make whipped cream-but the cream didn't seem to be heavy enough, so it didn't work out real well. After that, around 8, me and Chelsea went for a walk... it must have been 3 miles or so. We didn't get back until 9. I thought the dog was going to die... it was such a long walk, and poor Lily was convulsing when we got home because she was so tired! =) but, she is fine now.
Today, Chels and Jonny are working for the last time (Jonny forever and Chels until September), and everyone else went off to an auction. I stayed back as I only got out of bed a half hour before they left, and I was in need of some serious quiet time with the Lord and some quiet time in general. There isn't a lot of quiet in this house, at least compared to mine. At first, it really didn't bother me, but now it's getting harder with the amount of noise here. But, that's okay.
Tomorrow will be fun...we have church, we get to do worship together for the last time (sad morning it'll be...); and then we have a party at the Bale's farm to go to. Monday and Tuesday are going to be insane. We have our last minute shopping for New York, scrubbing the house top to bottom, packing all our stuff, and loading everything for 6 people into the minivan. Wednesday, we plan to leave at 6 in the morning and drive ten hours to just north of Columbia, OH where we will stay for the night in a nice hotel with a indoor swimming pool! =) And then up again on Thursday to drive 7 more hours to home... home...
I am both way looking forward to it and dreading it all at the same time...
And I am quite bummed because my mom and sister are leaving for Arizona on Wednesday, so even though I'll be home on Thursday, I won't see them until the following Tuesday.
Well, I think this is all...please pray for us all here, for the Lord's peace and for strength and for grace... and for comfort for me and Chels, because we both dread this goodbye as always.
