Jul. 21, 2008 - I Don't Wanna Say Goodbye... Ever
Today has been a fabulous day.
But time has raced much too fast.
We hauled out the bedroom...
made it look all spiffy and clean.
I guess I kinda left my mark here on this room...
I had no idea.
We hauled everything... and everywhere were letters from me, pictures of me, cards from me, etc... Mrs. Stearns hit it right on the head when she said, "Even when you aren't here in person, you're still here."
It made me think of my own room, where Chelsea permeates every square inch.
We had a grand time...
I love to organize.
The closet looks great.
So does the shelf and the vanity and the dresser...
In these last 24 hours, I feel also I have learned more about Chelsea than I have in a long time... it's like a whole new world of Chelsea. I won't say all I've discovered, but needless to say it's been fun.
The Lord has been so good...so gracious.
But here we are at 5:13 on Monday afternoon already.
We leave at 6 AM on Wednesday.
By Thursday night, I'll be saying adios to Chelsea as I carrying my luggage back to my bedroom (my bedroom in my house in Rochester, NY!) and saying goodbye as Chelsea's minivan departs from my driveway.
It'll be all over.
My whole summer in Missouri.
Six weeks.
It'll be all over.
After we finished cleaning today, we sat on the bed with two spoons and a can of chocolate frosting, and just enjoyed smiling at each other..
In four days, it'll be all over.
I hate this.
You don't even understand how much I hate this.
I totally and completely and utterly hate this.
I don't wanna say goodbye...
ever and ever and ever.
I don't wanna say goodbye.
I am tempted to say, "God, I cannot do this again."
But, I know somehow with His grace I will survive.
I always do.
But I don't wanna say goodbye.
Please, if I could just not have to say goodbye...
Oh... the time ticks away.
Tonight, Chels is babysitting...
Sonora and I will stay behind and wash the car in preparation for the trip; I'll finish the laundry and put the sheets back on the bed.
I'll go to the library and get our final movie--Sense and Sensibility.
Tomorrow, we'll wake up one last time and get to spend some time in bed before we move.
We'll shower.
we'll make a scavanger hunt for the car.
Pack our suitcases.
Pack everything up.
Return to piano.
Maybe see Caity again.
Play tennis one more time.
Go to bed.
Pray.
Sleep.
Get up at 5 AM...
and say goodbye to a summer in Missouri.,
I don't wanna say goodbye ever...
