Jan. 11, 2009
going into week 2 - Missouri
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Okay I'm bad..but trying..
We just completed week 1 of Missouri. It was very hard getting back into homeschooling after taking a week and a half off from schooling. And Christmas week, we did very little. So it was kinda more like 2 weeks off. We didn't cover everything I had planned so it's carrying over into our second week.
Some things we'll do:
Harry S. Truman - learn about him and do a bio report.
Mark Twain - ditto!
State quarter, color in a picture of a "postcard" from Missouri. :)
Art: how to draw cartoon characters. Walt Disney was from Missouri!
Make some homemade vegan ice cream. We learned how dairy ice cream is made last week. I'm terribly allergic to dairy, plus I wouldn't know how to make the dairy kind. I have a recipe for tofu ice cream so we'll make that this week. :-D
Books to read: Rude Mule, Simply Delicious, Grandpa Was a Cowboy.
Character Trait for this week: polite. Now this was a hard one to find in the Bible so it's basically examples of politeness.. Memory verse is Rom. 12:10 (about genuine love, taking delight in honoring each other - I think this fits because when you're polite you honor other people) One example I believe it's Abraham towards two angels when they came to his tent... very cool story. I'm just tired and can't think..
Outside activities: both girls have choir practice on Monday, separate times of course. Wednesday Rabbit has this prayer shawl ministry she'll take part in, making a prayer shawl. (what's a prayer shawl?) And Thursday Rabbit has Sprouts. I may be helping out this week but don't know, could be the following week..which will be the day after Rabbit's birthday. (she's a busy girl this month!)
I think I mentioned this before that PD asked me to help with the crafts with Sprouts. I'm excited and can't wait. Still don't know what I'm doing.. yet. :D
Rabbit turns 10 on the 21st. Hard to believe she's hitting the double digits! And her party is the 25th. Theme: Around the World! It's doable. Hard? a little. But we did Galloping the Globe unit study and I still have the book, plus some other books. I'm sure we can swing this. I did the invitations by hand.. now that was work!
One more thing and this is a brag: Rabbit did her first overnighter the other day (Friday night) at a retreat with a group from our church. She did great! Now I should mention that she has Asperger's so it's tough for her. But she's become friends with a girl who, just a few months ago she had a hard time with! They said there were no problems with her, she did great. I'm very proud of her! OTOH, my little girl's growing up! *sniff* |
Dec. 25, 2008
Merry Christmas
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Just going OT for the day to wish everyone on here a very Merry Christmas! I hope you all have an awesome day today! Happy Birthday Jesus!!! You're our Greatest Gift!!!  |
Nov. 20, 2008
unbelievable
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A friend of mine's daughter tried to commit suicide recently. I just found out today. She lives a few hours away from me - I can't get down to see her due to scheduling conflicts. But she really needs prayers. I contacted my friend G from the church and she forwarded my email to the youth pastor. I sent them both an update as well. My friend is not a Christian nor is her family Christian. Please pray for them? The "sin" I got caught up in, I have no desire to do now. Just makes me wince and shiver over it all. I just can't. Which I know, is very good. Still no word from Pastor D. I'm afraid he doesn't want to speak to me anymore and that alone is killing me right now, on top of everything else. I'll see him in a little while because Rabbit has her group and he's one of the leaders, along with G. So afraid how he'll react when he sees me.  With everything going on, our finances, Chris's disease, and all this stuff.. I'm not doing very well. But I won't do what I have been doing... and I won't do worse. That is a promise.  |
Nov. 19, 2008
finished early today!
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Now mom can play, get some things done... Okay Piglet's got the sniffles real bad so I'm ending early. Art this week is supposed to be drawing comics. With dh being off next week, it could be make-up time for that. He's very good at drawing (unlike me who can mostly do hearts and flowers!). So this works. And if my friend does call there shouldn't be any worries about interrupting our homeschool. We read a lot this morning. The Shadow of the Wolf book, finished off the first Kirsten book, read some Peanuts comics... I don't know if it's true or not but yesterday we did a biography report on Chuck Schulz. We learned he died - as a non-Christian? Something about his becoming a "secular humanist"?? Oh I hope not! I hope he's in Heaven. Not that it matters a celebrity being in Heaven, I care that there's as many as possible up there. Hate to hear about someone dying and not going there. A few years ago we lost a non-Christian friend. The girls' first experience with death of a person (we lost a guinea pig a few years ago, that was very sad). It's tough either way.. Someone correct me if it's not true about Schulz not being a Christian when he died. I would definitely love to know if he's up in Heaven... of course some day we'll know for sure. Gotta go. Piglet needs more of her medicine. |
Nov. 19, 2008
prayerfully optimistic about today/tomorrow
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I'm hoping to be able to talk to my friend soon since he's back from his trip -?? I still feel terrible about how I treated him a couple of weeks ago. I don't know if he's angry at me, given up on me or just has been too busy to get back to me? He tends to be very patient, not the big tempered kind (like me!  ). I was scared. I felt threatened. But he would never hurt me and I know that. I felt backed into a corner. How do I deal with this? Which way out? He was so like "in charge" after my confession to him that it scared me big time. He told me "I'll call you ___________" - not asked if this was a good time to call. Just gave me a time limit to tell my dh or we'll schedule a meeting with him. I felt like running - like to the Bronx where some friends live. Being shot by a gang member would've felt better than this. I'm not cheating on my dh but have been doing something wrong. I am doing a bit better about that...but I know I'm still very weak especially right now. I hope he forgives me and we can talk things over. And soon! My stomach is in knots just thinking about it. But I truly am sorry how I reacted and how nasty I got. He didn't deserve it. He's one of the nicest people I've ever met. And I really do admire him. He'll probably want to get together and talk with my husband and me - I'm open to it but still am very scared. I can't guarantee I'll do everything he thinks I should since I gotta get looking for a part time job. Things are really tough right now. But I'll talk and listen. I hope he listens too. I'm praying so much about this. I hate the not knowing in these things. I even had gone so far as to leaving a message on his cell last week but still, nothing. That's the only time I've ever called his cell and won't make a habit of it. My dh has all of next week off - he took vacation days so our schedule is very open, except for some homeschooling that needs to be done. That's flexible enough. I just want to do some reading with the girls and maybe a couple of math tests to get outta the way. And of course, Bible.  So we'll see if this meeting happens at all. I think sometimes because of my past abuse, when someone is nice to me, I react the opposite. Or I question their intentions. I struggle with trust, especially people in authority. But he's never given me a real reason not to trust him. I'm keeping this on "Everyone" so he can read this and get an idea how I'm feeling. But will close it once we've talked - if we do talk. I'm so nervous. |
Nov. 18, 2008
so tired and annoyed
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This is a vent. I'm so tired of how the kids treat me these days. Now it's the younger one, the one I call Piglet on here. She's got ADHD Combined, IOW, the severest form of ADHD according to the doctor. To me, it's a mixed blessing and a curse. She gets so violent and so hard to deal with. I just don't know what to do anymore. She's very disrespectful. She even hit me at church last night. We were at choir practice. (I don't sing, the kids do) When she had her choir practice, it was a very hard night and I felt bad for her leader. But I did appreciate how she and the rest of the kids in her group handled it, that's for sure. They came up with some ideas what to do when you feel bad. Piglet had wanted to tell her leader, Mrs. R, something but thought she didn't hear her. So Piglet screamed. There's a rule you're not allowed to scream, but raise your hand if there's something you want to say. And if you don't obey, you need to leave the room. ITU and respect that rule. Piglet nearly made Mrs. R cry. Mrs. R is really trying to figure out how to deal with her and her problems there. And I am too here at home. I am so beside myself in all this. I know the youth pastor has tried to help too and I do remind her of what he's said... she has a crush on him and I let her know he won't be happy when he hears about how she's behaving. She says at choir, she's not screaming, but "steaming." She was screaming, whether she's steamed or not. I'm so tired. And I'm tired of my dh stepping in at times when they really need to respect me as a mom. They don't. I do get very upset and I think that's why my dh steps in but I really think it would be helpful if he stood by me in agreement than "taking over" the situation. He's got a rare blood disorder - he could die from it. And if he does while they're still kids well then I'll have to deal with them alone. I know I sound selfish, but how will they respond to me once he's not around? Or just when he's out now, in general? Like when he's at work or something. We need to get a handle on this now. I'm tired of them talking back at me. I'm tired of being hit, kicked, etc and they complain they're being punished so much. Well, duh. I'm at a loss. But I love them and want to keep homeschooling. |
Nov. 14, 2008
week 1 of MN is over; changes may be on the way
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We finished our first week of MN. It's been fun so far! I've really enjoyed it and hopefully so did the kids. We're learning about pond life - the good, the bad, the icky! Ya gotta love those frogs! 8) The girls did get upset about predator animals though.. yeah ITA, not fun to learn about that.. but it's a fact of life. We've been reading the story, The Shadow of the Wolf. It's about a family whose dad is a land surveyor. He is a friend to the Indians though and moves his family to an Indian friend's area to help them buy back their land from the government. Pretty cool. And today we started reading about Kirsten, the American Girl, who moved to MN from Sweden. Both girls did their spelling tests and got 100% on them. (yeah!) And they had "self tests" from their math workbooks. Did okay, a few wrong. Math isn't our strongest point.. I did horrible even in the 3rd grade! Just couldn't get it and my dad, well he didn't take my math weakness too well.... I'm really trying not to repeat the chain of abuse going in my family...it's hard but I'm trying! Next week: we'll learn about Charles Schultz and try our share of drawing cartoons.. We'll learn about MN's state tree; more pond life stuff and learn about starting our own pond. Though we may not start one, being the fact it's going to get colder! I wouldn't know where to put it on our yard even though we have a nice sized yard..we've also had aquatic pets - goldfish, sea monkeys. The sea monkeys died in less than a week. So did the goldfish! We do better with the furry kind of animals. Which probably explains the squirrel nest in our roof! lol  We'll also be doing more sign language which has been a blast. I do need to try working it in to everyday stuff so they/we learn it better. The kids are driving me crazy. I'll make lunch, some fries like they ask. Piglet will come to me and say "it's about time!" when the fries are done. She's also hit me and hurt me a bit this morning. That's another week without computers for her. Rabbit called me an "idiot" this morning. She wanted to listen to a song on playlist but I had to reboot the computer first. (it was giving me some problems) She didn't like it and called me an "idiot." She didn't get to listen to her song.. I'm so tired of their being so disrespectful and even going so far as hitting me. Rabbit lost 2 weeks of computers for kicking me twice... she's still in that punishment btw. Onto the changes: No I'm not pregnant. lol I was talking to my dh last night. We're struggling really bad financially. Getting deeper into debt. And we got some important bills coming up. I need sneakers and can't afford that! And new glasses. The kids need winter boots and some winter stuff (especially Rabbit) So I'm going to look for part time work. Honestly I don't want to. However, it looks like I don't have much of a choice. It's either I go back to work or dh does. And he's the one who drives.. so for him to go back to work wouldn't be so smart. The kids have church activities and need their time with dad too. I'm with them all day homeschooling. We do get tired of each other, though I hate to admit that! Only thing is: what about my going back to school? What if Chris gets worse? He can go on disability, so we found out but it doesn't pay so great... I had a dream last night he died. I know, it's only a dream. He has fallen asleep on the kids (not on top of them!) but I worry about them with him falling asleep so easily and what if he doesn't wake up in time to come pick me up from work? I know it sounds so petty and selfish, huh? I'm telling you, special needs issues should only be for families that have money! I will be applying for some local jobs tonight/this weekend when Chris is home. Just in case I have questions. I'm kinda out of it with this stuff these daze.. One more thing: Chris has been extra tired lately. And he just had a phlebotomy last week. *shrug* Trying not to worry. |
Oct. 17, 2008
end of week 1 of MA
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It's been a busy week - and this weekend will be crazy. More on that in a minute. Monday we took the day off for Columbus day. Plus my dh had the day off. Makes no sense doing homeschool when he's home. Just doesn't happen. We finished our first week of MA today. It's been fun, kinda. We learned about Johnny Appleseed (real name John Chapman) which I think all 3 of us could agree that was very cool. He was like a missionary - spreading the Gospel and apple seeds. We was considering kinda strange since he was pretty much like a pauper and wore odd clothes for his time (and ours, come to think of it). But the people loved him - and tried to help both the Indians and settlers. Sad that he died of pneumonia. I wonder if there was anybody that helped him when he got sick? Today we also learned about John F. Kennedy. And Rabbit is truly rebelling against me, always going for those Democrats. lol I don't think JFK was such a terrible guy but it's kinda funny how Rabbit goes talking about wanting to vote for the Democratic party. Honestly, I vote for whoever I think is best for the job - Republican, Democrat or other... But she loves learning about the Presidents. The other day we did a Flower Detective of MA's state flower, the Mayflower. But when I did an "image search" on the computer for Mayflower, I got a bunch of pictures of the Mayflower boat, not actual flower. Rabbit, who hardly ever laughs about such things, burst out laughing! So that was cute. We figured it out though and they got their flower detective done. :-) Character Trait for this week: Persistence. One we could all work on! And boy did we struggle. And I'll stop procrastinating next week. lol I'm so tired now. Sunday is Piglet's birthday party. She turns 8 on Monday. Where does the time go? Our theme is High School Musical, which is no surprise. So far, only one boy is coming but that's perfectly fine. Should be fun. We're mixing a basketball theme in with HSM since Piglet loves basketball and is fairly good at getting the ball in the basket, for her age or any age.. And since Monday Piglet has choir practice, we're bringing cupcakes for after for her group and anyone else.. Got lots to do this weekend and want to get to bed early. G'night and Happy Friday! |
Oct. 12, 2008
this week - Massachusetts study! and other news..
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We're getting there in the middle of the M states. I wish I could go visit all of them. Taking Columbus day off since dh has the day off. I'm hoping to get to a farm stand with the kids and go pumpkin picking. We actually already have a pumpkin, since one somehow myseriously grew in our yard. I'm an accidental gardener, things don't always grow well if I do it on purpose. lol Okay the morning glories did great and we got baby's breath that's taken over some areas of our yard. (baby's breath was sorta an accident - I threw the seeds down last Fall!) So we're finally up to Massachusetts. I could take 3 weeks on this state, there's so much you can learn about with history, etc. I haven't decided yet on art for Tuesday. But we'll be learning about Johnny Appleseed and JFK. (two Johns in one week!) Hoping to make an apple pie with the girls..talk about timing, being October and we're going to a farm stand on Monday... (but I still miss the city!) For vocabulary, we'll learn what a cape is, as well as bogs and marshes.. MA's flower is actually the mayflower. (thank you, Pilgrims!)  Next week, I'm hoping to teach the kids about Louisa May Alcott, who wrote Little Women. I've read the book and seen the movie. Not my taste personally, but I think it's good for the girls to read about.. and of course Paul Revere. I'll try to find the Fetch! episodes we have on tape when the kids had to retrace Paul Revere's ride and go on this scavenger hunt, etc. Should be fun. I got a week to look for it - so there's a chance I'll find it. :-D Maybe.  We'll also be learning about the MA colony, stuff like that. History, history! Rabbit's gonna be in heaven...Piglet, well she'll hafta suffer through it. She'll be fine. Now that I think of it, I have a book on making 3D maps- including Paul Revere's ride somewhere in there...  Other news: My pastor friend, his wife had a baby boy on Thursday (the 9th). I haven't seen him IRL and don't know if I will soon but I've seen a picture. He's beautiful! The expression on his face is like he's ready for his first kiss! Piglet cried when she saw his picture, saying over and over how beautiful he is. (and she'll be turning 8 next week - sweet huh?) I probably won't be talking to my friend for another week or so, unfortunately.. since he's outta the office for now. :-( But keeping him and their family in my prayers, especially his wife and her recovery time...I did tell one of his other friends from church I'd be glad to help them out if they need it and told him as well in an email. So I don't know if I'll get a call but we'll see. They have a lot of family who live nearby. Of course the offer still stands even if it's weeks, months, whatever from now...(got that, Pastor D if you are reading this!) I haven't written on here much - sorry to say. Been giving in to depression a bit.. But I'm doing alright. I did get together with a good friend on Friday, for a little while. And I've had some fun on facebook... felt sick on Saturday and last night I dyed my hair a reddish color. I know it sounds funny but when I'm going through tough times, I dye my hair a lot. This is the 2nd time in about 2-3 months. About my dh: Thursday he had a bad day, did better Friday. Today he's cranky, moody and it's becoming contagious. >:-( He's making macaroni and cheese for the kids right now. His feet look horribly swollen! We got into an argument, that's how he ended up cooking dinner. I won that battle..sorta..  Happy Columbus Day / Canadian Thanksgiving day everybody! |
Oct. 3, 2008
Good news about my husband today!!!!
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I'm saying this again for those of you who aren't on facebook: My husband went for his regular-scheduled phlebotomy and great news: He didn't need it! It was only 3 points above normal. They called the blood specialist (the dr he was going to see today) and she said he didn't need to get it done. And she doesn't want to see him til next month. She'll test him and see -- maybe he won't need to get this procedure done as often!! I'm praising the Lord in this! And thank you thank you thank you everybody for your prayers, your encouragement, etc. Praise God!!!!!! (((group hug))) |
Oct. 1, 2008
update on my dh
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I meant to do this earlier. Sorry! He's doing better, thank you! And wow, people I don't recognize are responding. This place rocks. Thank you soooo much for your prayers. I'm deeply touched and so is my husband. My dh told me he started feeling better than he's had all week. But he's still keeping his dr appointment on Friday, after his phlebotomy. He wants to play it safe. I'm glad. Thanks so much again, everybody for praying for him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
Oct. 1, 2008
prayer request for my dh
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His ankles/feet are badly swollen and his skin is pretty itchy. It's part of his polycythemia but still he's concerned about it. He did make an appointment with the blood specialist - for Friday, after his scheduled phlebotomy. He's also been doing more research on his disease. I'm a little worried. (IOW not in panic attack mode yet but I'm struggling with depression so well..that's all in the mix kwim?) Please pray for him? Thanks so much. |
Sep. 27, 2008
more on plans with Maryland unit
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I am almost done planning for this week. Well it depends on how long it'll take to do the Bible lessons! Character trait this week: Gentleness. Ya think God is trying to tell me something with these character traits??!! I wasn't so gentle with a woman today who complained to me about my daughter at the library. My dd wasn't so bad, this person blew it outta proportion and I was tempted to slam her. Gentleness along with self control would be good ones to look up for me alone, huh? (though I did exercise self control - nobody got hurt! ) I'm excited that we're gonna be learning about Harriet Tubman. She was a true hero of the Underground Railroad. Her bravery is to be admired and I would consider her a role model for my girls, though honestly at this point, I don't know tons about her. But I think enough to say what I just did.. I found a great hands on activity to go along with learning about Harriet Tubman: make a journal and write about what it's like to be a part of that. Like pretend you're her, or you're one who gets helped by her. I think this would be good experience for my girls. And no, we're not black or even partly! But I'd like to think if I were alive during those times, I'd be helping the black slaves escape to freedom. Other lessons for this week: flower detective (black-eyed Susan), animal detective - MD's state bird.. for MD we'll also learn about crabs and their state tree of course.. There's not as much with this unit, but I hope the girls enjoy learning about the civil-war era and all that. That's all I can think of saying right now. Besides the fact I think I'm getting sick... |
Sep. 24, 2008
crazy week
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I don't know how long or short this will be. I've just been going a little nutty here. The kids - driving me up the wall. They're no longer sick and boy does it show. They're making up for whatever they think they lost. I think??!! Prayer request: Well I've been pretty depressed lately and not getting any better. I posted an unspoken prayer request to a few of my friends on the "social site" I go on and am asking the same here. I can't say what it is right now. I'm just.... struggling big time is all I can say. I don't know if I'll tell my buddy when we talk again next Friday but we'll see. I did send him an email the other day but it turns out something happened: he got sick or something? I wasn't offended that he didn't get back to me though since I know he gets real busy. Didn't even think twice - and in fact I called a friend who lives far away and we had a good talk instead. Rabbit is having some problems in her SS class. Turns out she has a bully in there that's getting other kids to tease her too.  I don't know how much or how little the teachers know but it's something my dh knows more than I do. The girls are both officially in choir and they're loving it. First performance, with my youngest, will be October 3rd. On World Communion Sunday. Oh man. I don't like to do the communion services at this church. Not that there's anything wrong with it. It's just different for me and the being up in front of everybody too just does things to my stomach..  |
Sep. 18, 2008
home with no kids for awhile :-)
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Mr. Chris took them to the park. I had a very hard day with them. He treated us to Wendy's, went to the library for a few minutes and then he dropped me off at home. This house is too quiet but no complaints. He was able to see how tough they were today because they continued to be monsters for him as well. Like I said before, he's the better parent and handles them much easier than I do. Even with this disorder/illness thing he's got. Unbelievable. Looking forward to tomorrow's call with my friend. Though I still feel very sheepish about what I did at the beginning of the week. Hopefully all is forgiven now and we can move from it. I learned my lesson big time. Basically I was a major jerk and can see clearly just how wrong I was. I'm struggling just forgiving myself on this one though. I wish this friend could come over instead so I can give them a hug. Oh well. You take what you can get and be thankful... |
Sep. 18, 2008
Christopher's disorder
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We had a little talk last night about what's going on with him, his symptoms, etc. It's been tough just knowing the seriousness of this at times. He says his feet swell up, which I noticed when we went down the shore a few months ago. Funny how I don't normally notice things like that? And he gets itchy, which is another common sign. Of course he's tired and moody, one thing I'm always mentioning here. When he has the phlebotomy, he perks up for a few days. But then he gradually gets more and more tired. By the time he's going for another phlebotomy, you can tell he needs it without even looking at the calendar. And I know the test he gets before he takes it will mean he needs it. I guess we were in denial for a while, wanting to move outta state and his wanting to go back to school. You don't want to admit these things. He goes for a phlebotomy every 6 weeks. Yet at least I can say I didn't want to see it, didn't want to really admit it. I can say, yeah he has this, but I'm not sure how much of that truth I believed, honestly. I'm giving in to depression lately. It's so hard with everything else going on. I'm just like, it's not fair he has this. He's the more patient parent, between the both of us. Why him? He's the provider, the better driver, the better at everything than me. I seriously wish I was the one who had this instead. I know maybe that sounds weird to say? What'll I do if this disease does kill him? I can't deal with these 2 kids alone. I don't want to live without him, kids or not. We've been married 18 years. My parents' marriage lasted 20, but ended in divorce. (I was only 12) Yeah I'd rather 'til death do we part' but not so soon. I'm so alone with these kids already. It'll be 10 times worse without him. Thanks for listening. And again for your prayers. I don't think I can ever say thanks enough for that. |
Sep. 17, 2008
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This has been a long week so far. And to think we're right in the middle now! Both kids are still coughing, sniffling, etc. I gave Rabbit some zyrtec this morning to help her. Her eyes were watery so I think she does have some hayfever to top her cold. I wonder if the medicine affected her though? It's hard to say - she's always moody. Kinda like when you know someone who's an alcoholic, you can't tell when they aren't drunk. Or giving a kitten catnip. kwim? Rabbit's my little moody girl and was like this as a baby too. She'd go from crying to laughing in the same breath!  I did read to them a bit. There's a book called Shadows on the Sea, which takes place during WWII about a girl who spends the summer at her grandma's while her parents are away. Pretty good so far. But we have so much more to cover we're getting behind on. Maine is a busy state! You could learn a lot from it, for a state that's mostly boonies. I couldn't live anywhere if it's more than 20 minutes away from a Walmart or something! I live in the sticks now but couldn't live where the neighbor was Grizz Lee Bear! What's driving me nuts about the girls this week is they want to go on the computer yet they are "too sick" for schoolwork. Then they have meltdowns if I say no. Rabbit is punished again from the computer for the big meltdown yesterday. Something she's obsessed with and she's gone way too far on. I just had to do something to let her know she needs to stop. I'm a pack of nerves with decisions I'm going to need to make in the next few weeks - about school for me.. about other things...still unsure about my church.... etc. Well, at least it's helping me lose weight! I was getting my appetite back but I'm losing it again. Go figure. I could lose a good 50 lbs anyway so it's no big deal. Just hope once I lose it, it doesn't come back. |
Sep. 16, 2008
kids are still sick :-(
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I guess it's some virus that's going around. Both are coughing, sniffling, sneezing... I know I'm next once they're all better. And I really spread out the lessons good for 2 weeks learning about Maine. We'll have to crunch it all in next week anyways. I hope this doesn't go on for 3 weeks. We're behind on this curriculum and I want to cover all the states by June. Someone on here pointed out that I have so much going on that it's clouding my view of things. She could very well be right and I appreciate her pointing it out. I had a rough start to the week and regret that big time. I've been so moody and not sure why. I feel like, I wish I had the blood disorder instead. My dh is the better parent, he's more patient with the kids than I am. By 7:30 pm, he usually takes over getting them ready for bed. I'm ready to a break big time. (right now they're watching a dvd) I've been so depressed. I still don't get the "God never gives you more than you can handle" thing. Yeah right. But I am going to Him for help, that's for sure! I really wish I could see Jesus face-to-face and He'd tell me what I should be doing as far as school, church, family, etc. A hug would be nice too. The kids missed choir practice last night like I thought they would. Hopefully they'll be back next week. Rabbit missed her first practice last night. Bummer. Today there's some science group at the library. The kids want to go but they'll even admit they're not up to it right now. We'll see how they are by the afternoon. I'm not keeping my hopes up. Will I ever get outta this house again??!!! I'm so isolated to begin with. That's the tough part about having sick kids. You feel like you live in a box. I am getting more housework done anyway. Chris is doing pretty good as far as I could tell. I'm helping him out more, which gives him extra rest so maybe that's part of it. At least I'm trying to help him out more. I've had some say I'm the glue that holds this family together. No way. Jesus is that glue. Without Him, I'd be like plastic wrap only sticking to myself and making more of a mess! Pam, thanks again for being so encouraging. And thanks again everyone for your prayers. I know God is using you to make a difference here by your prayers and encouragement! (((hugs))) |
Sep. 14, 2008
another Sunday at home
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I did end up skipping church today as I thought I would. Honestly, I was kinda not sure if I wanted to go this week. Rabbit wasn't feeling well - she's had this cold and the other day had a nasty sore throat. I thought she was getting better. But her lips were beat red and so were her cheeks. I know it sounds funny, but that's a sure sign with her that she's sick. Besides the fact you could hear it in her voice. Kinda laryngitis-ish. The other day we got another invitation about joining the church. Those things kinda scare me away. In this church it's nice - they have a dinner, welcome you in front of the whole congregation (which isn't small!!) and I don't know if it's a requirement, but then you need to take a class. All that kinda makes me feel uncomfortable. Not the class so much, but the other two things. I have so many food allergies, and yeah I'm on a diet anyways. But I don't want to be imposing about all that or even insult them if I don't have much because of my allergies (or diet!). Standing up in front of the congregation? Well, let's just say I'd rather be in labor with quintuplets, no medication... And no, I'm not gonna say I'd rather play golf. I could think of more things I'd rather do than golf! I'm just so shy in crowds these daze..more like scared to death? My GERD acts up (which can be pretty loud!) and I get real quiet. (doesn't the GERD do enough talking??) Put me in a small group of people I do know and I'll talk their ears off. No happy medium with me, huh? I like this church, there's a ton of great things about it. But I still got questions and some things I've talked about with my friend there always leaves me with more questions. My notebook is filling up fast! I just don't know. *shrug* It's hard because on one hand, they're awesome to us, to say the least. OTOH, I'm so confused!!! Stuff about "journeys" and how I'm finding some are into evolution, something I oppose strongly on and can't understand where or why they'd believe in it. It's a more liberal denomination, but like I said they're awesome to us. The few people I do know there accepted me no matter what and I'm so like wow over that. And I do love them back even in spite of the areas I strongly agree on, really! I know God is doing something here with me. I know He's teaching me something. I just gotta listen better. Oh yeah, update on Mr. Chris: he seems to be doing alright lately. I know the prayers are making a difference. Yes, he still gets tired and cranky. Mr. PMS himself. But overall, I'd say he's doing pretty good. Tx again for all those prayers for him/us! (((hugs))) |
Sep. 13, 2008
Saturday night rambling
Posted in When it doesn't seem to go anywhere else!
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Rabbit's doing much better. She's still a bit sniffly but definitely much improved. I got a bit sniffly today as well but I think it was hayfever. Once I took some allergy meds, I felt better. So we'll see about church tomorrow if anyone needs to stay home or not.. I signed up on one of those facebook-myspace kinda sites this past week. And I found an old friend from high school! I'm really excited because he was just so nice to me. I had moved from another town not too far from there. I didn't have a lot of friends in high school and had a lot of problems. But he was never ashamed to be with me no matter what others thought, etc. I've never forgotten that about him. He knows I've since become a Christian, but I wonder what he thinks of me now that I homeschool, etc. etc.? He's still living in the same area we went to high school at, but I've since moved an hour or so from there. Still it's not too far for us to meet up again (with my dh of course!) if he wants. There's a fun church event going on next weekend - maybe I'll invite him if I hear from him before next weekend. But we'll see... the girls want to go to that event and I won't push it if he doesn't want to go. It's just an idea. I still got some homeschool planning to work on tomorrow after church. We got a lot of books in for Maine. This is going to be so cool, I can't wait! Rabbit has some makeup work to do still yet so maybe we'll work on that tomorrow as well? The character trait for this week is one I really struggle with: submission! I'd like to come up to a character trait in this curriculum that I don't need a sermon on for myself! Huh-lllooooo! Shame that sarcasm isn't a Biblical trait God wants us to have. I'm good at that one - ya think??! lol Oooh, we got some work to do.... He definitely ain't finished with me yet! I titled this one about rambling and yep, it's a ramble. Later! |