Aug. 13, 2008
I guess this is it
Posted in Vents
I did what I can with the problem I'm having at my church. Still so far I haven't heard from either of the 2, but I did try. Finally had something to eat around noon - the first time eating since yesterday morning. I couldn't eat, my stomach was in knots and all my crying. I'm still pretty sad. I know I blew it but I think Pastor D made some mistakes here too. If only he'd told me what he was doing but he even assured me what I told him was gonna be kept confidential. I just assumed that included emails. Guess he didn't mention that didn't count. I don't know. I wish we could talk this out so we could get a better understanding of each other's sides. Even if one of them sent just a note to say they'll be getting back to me soon - don't worry (if I shouldn't) or whatever.   I'm tired of being hurt like this. I need a break from church in general. I'm pretty shy to begin with. I'm just tired of it all. I love the Lord, I want to stay with Him. Maybe should we relocate things will get better and I'll find a church to belong to. My dh and kids will continue to go to that church though. The kids need it and they love it there. I'm in a very tough position and yeah I could blame myself. But like I said, he could've done things a little differently too. I'm just venting - if you're reading this, thanks for listening. And thanks to my friends out there who have been praying.  |
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