Sep. 2, 2008
Labor day and var. thoughts
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We went to a picnic at a church that's nearby yesterday. It was fun - I ran into some old friends that I see from year to year. The group from the city came. The area we go to is right at the lake, where sometimes they will do baptisms, etc. Pretty cool. I ran into my buddy from the city. We go way back over 10 years. I'm sure longer but don't remember how long. We play catch up every year on Memorial day and Labor day when we see each other. It's neat to see her - especially this time since the last time the doctors weren't sure how long she had to live. Now they're saying, it looks like she'll be just fine. She has health issues that could complicate things but nothing fatal at this point. (Praise the Lord!) But we got to talking and I told her what's going on with my dh and she says that she's glad to see I can laugh, etc. with all I'm struggling with. And she'll be praying. Plus another thing: I'm thinking of going out to the city to visit her! I miss that area so much though I've only visited her once. And she forgot to lock the door one of the nights I was there! rofl If I could say the name of the area, it would be a surprise. Not exactly safe. But very cool area, IMO. Their church is right down the road too. It's awesome. Chris spent the day sitting in the shade talking with friends (the heat bothers him with his disease). The kids were good overall. Piglet had a meltdown when it came time to leave. Rabbit got a sunburn on the back of her neck. I got a sunburn on my face (but mine doesn't hurt like Rabbit's does!). So it was a good time and I'm glad and thankful for it. Now it's Tuesday and back to the daily grind. I lost my patience with Piglet again. She keeps making up excuses for misbehaving and I just don't buy it. She needs to see there are consequences. I struggle between grace and wanting to teach them a lesson. With her ADHD, it makes it much harder because she does try to get away with a lot then has a meltdown, etc. when she gets punished, etc. I'm just so lonely and really feel the lack of support IRL. I really do appreciate those here and IRL who do pray, who can't do much else because of their busy lives, etc. Sometimes I do need someone with "skin" on though and it's so hard. I hate the line, "God never gives you more than you can handle." How can I handle all I'm dealing with right now? I feel so alone in this house with everyone having their issues. I'm trying, really but honestly, many times I don't know how. With my dh it's easy: let him get his rest and do what he asks (when he asks!). Some say I'm a good mom, but I don't see that either. If those people were a fly on the wall, I wouldn't doubt their opinion of me would change.  Even one of my friends called me a little "rock" in this family. I told that person I'm more like clay, but did appreciate the compliment.  I just wish an angel could come, someone who could tell me exactly what I should do, show me how, without getting all preachy or all like "you're doing everything wrong." If you've gotten this far, thanks for listening. Again, thank you to those who are praying for me and my family. I do appreciate it, really. ((hugs)) |
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