Sep. 14, 2008
another Sunday at home
Posted in Church
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I did end up skipping church today as I thought I would. Honestly, I was kinda not sure if I wanted to go this week. Rabbit wasn't feeling well - she's had this cold and the other day had a nasty sore throat. I thought she was getting better. But her lips were beat red and so were her cheeks. I know it sounds funny, but that's a sure sign with her that she's sick. Besides the fact you could hear it in her voice. Kinda laryngitis-ish. The other day we got another invitation about joining the church. Those things kinda scare me away. In this church it's nice - they have a dinner, welcome you in front of the whole congregation (which isn't small!!) and I don't know if it's a requirement, but then you need to take a class. All that kinda makes me feel uncomfortable. Not the class so much, but the other two things. I have so many food allergies, and yeah I'm on a diet anyways. But I don't want to be imposing about all that or even insult them if I don't have much because of my allergies (or diet!). Standing up in front of the congregation? Well, let's just say I'd rather be in labor with quintuplets, no medication...  And no, I'm not gonna say I'd rather play golf. I could think of more things I'd rather do than golf!  I'm just so shy in crowds these daze..more like scared to death? My GERD acts up (which can be pretty loud!) and I get real quiet. (doesn't the GERD do enough talking??) Put me in a small group of people I do know and I'll talk their ears off. No happy medium with me, huh?  I like this church, there's a ton of great things about it. But I still got questions and some things I've talked about with my friend there always leaves me with more questions. My notebook is filling up fast!  I just don't know. *shrug* It's hard because on one hand, they're awesome to us, to say the least. OTOH, I'm so confused!!! Stuff about "journeys" and how I'm finding some are into evolution, something I oppose strongly on and can't understand where or why they'd believe in it. It's a more liberal denomination, but like I said they're awesome to us. The few people I do know there accepted me no matter what and I'm so like wow over that. And I do love them back even in spite of the areas I strongly agree on, really!  I know God is doing something here with me. I know He's teaching me something. I just gotta listen better.  Oh yeah, update on Mr. Chris: he seems to be doing alright lately. I know the prayers are making a difference. Yes, he still gets tired and cranky. Mr. PMS himself. But overall, I'd say he's doing pretty good. Tx again for all those prayers for him/us! (((hugs))) |
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