Posted in Little One Lost

Prayer-  Monday Hubbie joined me at my first Ob appt  and I was so eager to hear the baby’s heartbeat.  Alas, no heartbeat was found and a sonogram followed by blood work confirmed this little one did not make it.  

Pray for God’s healing on my body, on my broken heart and hopes.  Pray His protection of my girls and all their hopes for a little one.  (Their coloring have crying eyes.)  Pray for God’s clear direction and timing, I feel very pressured to be over this by Hubbie's surgery only a week or so out.

Pray for his surgery to go well and no complications October 2.  He’s again looking at a week in the hospital.  Pray for family who’s coming to have a good visit with the girls.

Prayer matters!!  Thanks for your continued prayer.  Yesterday I asked Hubbie  if this was a faith quake.  We're both ok.  We're shaken yet we both firmly know God is faithful.  His word has been precious and life to me throughout this season.  This week in Psalm 139 even the darkness is not dark to him.  I'm yet walking in a darkness with grieving this loss and I know He is my every present help in need. 

My grieving this little one started on Monday.  I knew things were not right.   All the hope of the 11 weeks we waited vanished like vapor.  The cute Christmas dress that would be so cute with a bump rather than a square pillow is not to be.  Oh gracious.  We laughed as friends prayed for a stinky baby boy!!

He gives and takes away.  Blessed be the name of the Lord.    

Today we girls took the day off and headed to the zoo.  We had a wonderful time!!  We even came home with somewhere between 1 and 20 antlions!!!   Anyone want our extras???  It was a great distraction from the heaviness….  

I’m yet claiming His yoke is easy & His burden is light, but it has gotten a lot heavier…