Posted in Little One Lost

I'm quite a bit out of the loop since loosing our little one...  as of yet I still tear up on the phone.  That makes groups very overwhelming.

I tried to go to drop the girls at AWANA tonight.  I hoped for little exposure.  I got more than I bargained for.

1- "How are you?"  Good (I really am good from where I've been) but I felt scolded... "You don't have to be good...."  (I soon learned that 'good' was a safe answer.)

2- "How are you doing?"  It's been a really hard week.  (Well, that did me in!  With sunglasses in place I quickly retreated with wet eyes...  the "good" was easer to handle...)

3- "When's your date?"  (I know the question was in innocent... but I was toast.... as the tears came I retreated.  I was so thankfull my wonderful Hubbie could explain and get our kidos.)

I’ve heard tears are healing.... but right now they just feel like pain.  I'm nowhere ready for these tears to pick up and carry me away.  It is so much easer at home.  I'm yet praying for healing and I know who heals!!  His name is Jesus.

My heart goes out to a girlfriend who also lost her little one just a week before me!  We share the same pain.  We are both are praying for another friend to yet have a baby girl and that she’s not be burden by our losses!!!