Posted in Little One Lost

My 7yo said she did not want to eat her hamburger...  and at dinner she sat and stared at me the longest before she finally ate it....  I found later she had written that she was going to give up hamburgers for 3 days!!  As a matter of conscience she sat and stared.  I've known her to be headstrong... but this direction....

Reading on her own in her God and Me 2 book started w/ a story on "Esther- My prayers can reach heaven.  2 Chronicles 30:27"

The devotional questioned... "What do you want to change with your prayers?"  "Baby" (Oh, the loss of our little one weighs heavy on little hearts too.)

The next page challenges Hand to Heaven... "Think of something you can give up for three days to show God you are serious about your prayers to him."

After dinner that night, she explained to me why she was giving up hamburgers, meat and money to pray for a baby.  She asked if it should be a girl or a boy...  And I said we'd love any little one God gave us.  We talked about what to give up and decided giving up dinner was not her option.  She started to think of other things... math and school... and giving up those where not an option either.... 

What optional things could she give up for 3 days?  Then she decided upon ice cream, webkinz, & candy.  Now for 3 days she's foregone candy and webkins and ice cream... to pray for a baby.  We've talked how God answers prayer... yes... no... and wait.

My heart is touched by her prayers & by her passion to give up her favorites to pray for a baby.  I'm challenged to pray and yet this ground in my heart is so tender... even raw...  fast and pray.  fast and pray.  I'm thinking we'll enter a season to fast... maybe from the pc and cell phone!!  To fast and pray for a baby.

I'm very reminded to pray for their tender hearts.  My little one yet asks when we'll go to the hospital to get the baby to bury....  it is so hard to understand.  My oldest sees someone expecting and asks why we cannot have a baby & then fasts and prays for a baby.  God hears our prayer and all life is in His hands.  I pray for those headstrong dirctions to honor Him.

All this time I was not schooling... and God's been her teacher...  Wow!

Last night on the way to her Bible study with her daddy she saw the sunset and exclaimed "Wow dad!!  Look at that, oh man oh man... God is going to be famous for this one!!"

Hubbie is recovering well and standing mostly straight up!  He was exhausted after work.  We enjoyed a wonderful meal from Caroline..  Thanks!!!  And we had a good walk tonight.  He's making great strides.  God is the Great Physician.  Rapha.  We had a good official school day & ballet too!!  ss