Monday, February 11, 2008 - Milestone
Today I packed up all of my maternity clothes.
Basically, I cleaned out my closet, because that's almost all that was in there. How bare it is now, how empty and what a shell!
Our closet has no doors on it, and so, every time I would go in our room I would see those clothes. Each night, when I lay down in bed, I see those clothes. They stare me in the face, reminding me that they aren't being worn, like I so wanted to right now!
So I decided, the other night, that I would lay those hopes and dreams to rest. Because that's what those clothes represent for me, hopes and dreams. I know, you say, how can inanimate objects carry hopes and dreams??
Well, it's like a picture, a scrapbook, or a photo album. You look at the photos and they remind you where you've been, what you did, all of the wonderful things in your life. Or your photos can remind you of painful times, through a look or a certain place.
Maternity clothes are hopes unmet and dreams that will not come true for me right now.
So it's time to put them to rest. These particular dreams have no tomorrow, no attaining, no reaching for. These hopes have no way of being fulfilled, they've been deferred for eternity.
I am not putting them to death. Just putting them away for now.
And in the meantime, we will continue to ask God to bless my womb.
And someday, maybe I will get to where all of those great clothes.
Lord, may I???
Comments
Tuesday, February 12, 2008 - :)
Posted by nikowa
I've heard from several people, that as soon as they stopped worrying about it or actually trying-then it happens (when you least expect it). I'm the same way with dieting-if I try I don't lose-when I "give up" it falls off!
Tuesday, February 12, 2008 - Untitled Comment
Posted by Rebeca
Oh Leanne! I'm so sorry, and know that these dreams are hard to put to rest. Praying for you! Rebeca
Tuesday, February 12, 2008 - Untitled Comment
Posted by drewsfamilytx
((((hugs)))))
I'm proud of you, Leanne! I know that must've been so very difficult to do. But I think it is definitely a step in the right direction... for now... God has a perfect plan for you. We just have to see how it unfolds.
Love,
Marsha
Thursday, February 14, 2008 - Untitled Comment
Posted by Anonymous
Leanne,
It's got to be so hard. I'm praying for you right now. Michelle
