Jan. 18, 2007 - Back to Introduction

Well, I think I will go back to early summer where things went awry.....life went disappointingly crooked, or so it seemed.   We had about 9 months without a job, and that shook us up a lot.  Not that we weren't looking--we were (very hard), the job just was not there!!!  Now, we have always had a heart for missions (I think as Christians we all do), and we thought maybe we should go to a school of missions down in TX.  We were planning pretty seriously, but the doors were closing pretty firmly in our faces.  Can you say "disappointment?"  Things just kept getting harder.  Well, my husband decided to take a medical coding class.  Surely, this was the answer!!  This was a 2 year course condensed into 10 weeks.  This was the most intense class I have ever seen.  He spent all day studying and then he'd go to class. 

The stress began to rise for us both.  You know, all along it just seemed good enough to prepare a good home, be a good wife, cook, clean, teach my children and be a blessing as much as possible.  Things really changed and God was asking me to live outside of myself for once.  Being a "good" wife really changed directions.  Suddenly, I was trying to figure it all out....fix things...desperately.  Oh, our marriage was good, but life was suddenly looking very sour and we were just barely hanging on.  So, superwoman came to the rescue....."What can I do to fix it all?  I kept looking back and thinking "if only things were like they were 3 years ago...we were happy then...."  My wonderful mom sent me an e-mail and encouraged me to choose to love right now and not look back to who we were then, but that God was doing something new in us and to embrace it.  AAAahhhh, I could breathe again.  Letting go, and trusting God is so freeing.  Slowly we began to mend.  The job came, summer came to an end and school began.  Life continues, and we are closer than ever.  God does an amazing thing in our lives when we let Him, and don't try to be in control so often. 

This is not our dog BTW.....but maybe how we looked early this past summer......