Its good that Im finally able to access homeschoolblogger. I thought that my blog would have been erased but praise God its not. Last yr, I put my dd in ps. It bothered me the entire time, but I had to because of my work schedule. When working in excess of 60/wk and being a single parent, there's only so much one can do. I knew that when I put her in ps she was going to be behind in language arts and math. But we know where our children are behind as homeschoolers. This year I have new job with great hours. There are so many things that God is doing to confirm my decision to hs this year. Satan was using my fear (as he is so good at) to not hs. I was so afraid of failing that I didnt want to hs. I felt my failing is the reason why she was behind. However, someone explained it perfectly to me. If your child was behind in ps they would put her in special classes. Yes, that is soooooooooo true...so what is the big deal. All kids are not the same. Some excel in some things, some dont. We just work with them as best as we know how. This is what I plan to do.
We will be starting school on Sep 3rd. Yes, I know its a holiday. But this is our starting date. Until next time!
This will be my last posting as a homeschooler. It saddens me greatly but tomorrow my daughter starts PS. My job has simply become to hectic and although Ive tried my best, it wasnt enough. I agonized greatly with my decision. My only alternative would be to quit my job and resort to welfare. I simply cannot do that. I would love to stay in touch with those who I have become friends with. Feel free to email me at take_up_ur_cross@yahoo.com. Thanks for walking with me in this journey. Much love to all.
The God we serve is a mighty God. He is a good that healeth all things! Even when things dont go the way we think they should, He still sits on the throne. I was recently engaged and I thanked God for bringing such a wonderful man into my life. Satan threw a monkey wrench into it and unfortunately we are no longer together. Although my heart was saddened, God always knows whats best. He can see the future. Despite what many believe today, when two are married they become one. Once I say I do, my husband becomes the head of the household. With that in mind, I could not sit under a pastor who believed the way he did (the monkey wrench). The God we serve is a righteous God. He is not a respector of person. Nor is He the author of confusion.
While we do not live in a perfect world (in fact its becoming more and more hostile to those who serve the Lord Jesus Christ), we must live a holy life. Jesus tells us " But as he which hath called you is holy, so be ye holy in all manner of conversation; Because it is writen, Be ye holy; for I am holy. 1 Pet. 1:15-16. Knowing this, I could not allow myself or my child to sit under someone who was not rightly dividing the Word.
The moral of the story? We must always screen the world through the Bible and not the Bible through the world. There is no tossed salad approach when it comes to the Bible. What do I mean? I mean that we cannot pick and choose what Scriptures apply to us. Its not about whats relevant or convienent.
" Jesus Christ the same yesterday, and today, and forever." Heb. 13:8
Thank you all for the encouragement. There has been a lot going on lately. So much that it has brought me to a breaking point several times. School is going, not as great as I would like. Several times lately Ive considered PS. Not because I dont feel like Im doing the job, but because of all thats going on. Its sad when you cant get aid because you "make too much." Its sad and frustrating. Christmas is coming, my daughter's birthday is coming, more bills are coming, etc. I would like to change my daughter's curriculum to Alpha Omega or SOS thats not gonna happen anytime soon. Do we move, do we stay? So many variables in all of this. I feel like Im in the middle of a tornado. Maybe I am. I apologize if I am complaining. I am still here just wanted to stick my head in for a breather.
Its been a long weekend. Its actually been a difficult weekend. I fell under a heavy depression. I dont know why, I just know I did. Im coming back. I know He will not allow me to have more than I can handle. Although, it seems dark and the light at the end of the tunnel seems far away, my God is there. That's something I need to hold on to. The fact that even in the midst of the storm when you cant see a thing, God is there. All He has to do is say, "Peace, be still" and everything obeys. Peace, be still.
School is going good and every day I see that homeschooling was the right choice, despite the obstacles.
Its hard working FT and homeschooling FT. Not to mention be in church FT...lol if you will.. I cant stop working because I enjoy getting a paycheck more than once a month. I have no desire to go on welfare. It simply angers me that when I need assistance with food or medical care, they tell me I make too much. How can I make too much when Im barely making over $8.5/hr? You cant afford the medical coverage at your job, because its simply too expensive. I cant tell you the last time I went "grocery" shopping. After all, what is that?? I buy as needed which is few and far between. My curriculum is purchased with part of my tax refund. Sometimes my daughter will ask what she can snack on...I simply say there's ramen noodles. That gets old after a while. What is there to snack on unless I want to reheat dinner (which is fine) or make a whole meal again. Ugh.
Every year you hear people talk about vacationing. That would be nice to go away every year. Im due to go on vacation next month but dont know if I will be able to. I made the mistake of telling my daughter (I was planning to go visit my mom in Carolina). How do you tell an 8 yr old that you have to make sure all the bills are paid, etc. and ensure there is enough gas money for down and back?? Yes, its simple, but not so easy if she doesnt see her grandma but once every 2 yrs or so. Now, if we dont go thats another disappointment I have to deal with but its something that we can make it through.
When all this is going on and it was a long day at work and you have a child that is grouchy because she doesnt want to do school work that late in the evening. It makes for a very ROUGH day. You have all these thoughts swirling in your head. You wonder if you can continue down this road and remain positive. The thought of PS may even sneak in your head. But just about the time when you want to say ENOUGH, God steps in and says "rest," and "peace be still." You shed some tears and He wipes your eyes. You close your eyes and He rocks you to sleep. His love radiates throughout your body. You realize..."God is God and I am not. I can only see a part of the picture His painting. God is God and I am man." God must know that I can handle this. He has made a way that I could do this. As far as my other worries, God has provided. We have never went hungry or been without shelter. The other things, if He wants us to have them we will receive them.
Tonight may seem dark but joy comes in the morning.
Im about to embark for the umpteen time to lose weight....If anyone has any suggestions that would be excellent. Not sure how Im going to keep track of it...but I will. Hope all is going well for everyone. I was waiting on the Field Guide for Birds to come in at the library. My daughter has to use it in her science class....interesting. Until next time, chow!