Wednesday, December 6, 2006 - Is it weird that...
I'm here to blog about my new blog?
Oh well, I've been accused of being weird before...hasn't killed me yet.;)
I'm just so amazed at how easily the difficult words of our story flow. It's God. It has to be. The things we've been writing the last few days are intense and way out of our comfort zone. I've sat in front of the computer crying and praying facing some of it again, but I felt that this was the time the Lord would have us to share this story...I felt convicted at the very thought of backing out of it when I decided it was getting too hard.
So along we've plugged. My husband and I have put so much of ourselves into this newborn project. We've laughed and cried and prayed together in the process. Though we could easily fall back into a trap of bitterness or resentment digging up some of the messier details, we've instead found ourselves in awe at what the Lord has done and is doing. He's so very good isn't He?!
Last night I read over some of what we have put out there and I began to feel like it wasn't good enough, like my writing has gotten sloppy and that it all sounds stupid...and why on earth am I sharing this with the world?!
I almost deleted the entire thing. I decided to look at it again in the morning, after a little sleep, and go from there.
I shared my insecurities with my dh and he prayed for me.
We went to town to pick up papers from his work that couldn't wait for his shift tonight. He came jogging out of the office with the biggest grin on his face. He had gotten an unexpected bonus. He casually says, "I guess I don't have to worry about how I'm gonna get back and forth the rest of the week", and taps on the gas meter thing (I hardly drive and I don't even know how to pump gas, you'll have to overlook my lack of terminology). I was shocked. I had no idea that this was a concern. It hit me just a little ways down the road that this is a blessing from God for being faithful to the story, the whole story, and nothing but the story he told us to tell.
I just began to cry and praise Him. Obedience is the best form of worship. I guess I see that a bit clearer today.
This afternoon and each afternoon for the last several days we have received emails from different friends encouraging us to go on with this process. I am blessed to be encouraged by and an encouragement to those that have been a part of our blog by reading it and sharing their thoughts and hearts about it.
As far as homeschooling, the kids are still being "spoiled" each day this month. Our normal school routine has turned from deskwork and me reading to them/them not listening, to me playing with them and them doing their own thing for school. In fact my 7 y.o is reading them all a book about sharks right now....and they're actually paying attention!
They don't need me to learn...they just need me to provide the stuff they need to figure it out for themselves....
and a little push to do their handwriting once in a while.
I guess that's the update for now. I'll say again that you are welcome to email me if you want the link to our new blog. In case you can't figure out how to find me email address I'll put it here.
I'll be back soon. Please pray for us.
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Friday, December 8, 2006 - ................
Posted by LittleEblingsAcademy
Praying..........
Blessings, Beckie :o)
