I really debated about posting this. In fact I had decided I wasn't going to, but then I decided that all things work for good for those who love God. I am going to share just to reaffirm to myself where my hope lies.

Today has been rough. It started out this morning when I took my 15 yo son to the doctors. It went well. It was just a physical because he hasn't had one in 8 years.I love the new doctor we have found. Life was good. He got a tetnus shot because he hasn't had one in 10 years (I do not wish to discuss the pros and cons of immunizations. My husband and I are well educated on it and we have made the best decision for us and our family) When we got up to the check out desk I handed him my book so I could take care of the bill. I turned around and I heard a big bang behind me. He had fainted. He was out cold. I have never seen people move so fast, he had 4 people surrounding him before I could move. He came around and recovered fine. The reason they figured he fainted was one) he hadn't eaten anything that morning and 2)it was a side-effect of the shot. I guess it was pretty common with shots. In the end I was more scarred and shaken up then he was.
On top of this, my husband suffers from SAD (seasonal affective disorder) this season has been especially difficult.  He is a good man, he loves his family, and takes very good care of us, but right now he is barely functioning. Because of this and because it is a very slow time for those who work in the construction industry he has had very low amounts of work. Money is very tight. So we have gotten behind on some bills. So today was the day I get the collection calls. One man made the remark to  me that he was concerned at the "lack of concern in my voice" as he was talking to me. ARGGG!! I asked him how I was to sound? I told him I had a family to take care of and it would do me no good to work myself in a dither and develop ulcers to add  medical bills. I  pretty much let him have it and in the end he did apologize.
After hanging up the thought crossed my mind that the reason I sounded to calm for him was that I was putting my trust in Christ. I have totally given it to him and it would do me no good to worry about it. We have a couple of large checks coming to us and it will cover all of our bills through March and beyond that it is in God's hands. I have no control of it but God does. The same goes for my children's health. I totally believe that God is in control of everything. All of my tomorrow's, my finances, my children and my husband's state of mind. It is all his and I don't have to worry about it. Today is the day I need to concern myself over and today I have healthy kids, a husband who loves us and will take care of us, a warm house, and food for our bellies. That is what God promised would be mine plus more. I will continue to hold onto God's promises, my hope is in God.