Am I crazy that I want something better for my daughters than what I had?

Ok just to let you know almost all the things I want for my daughters are things I did not do myself.Uh oh I hope they never read this.lol But as mothers don't we always want better for our children than what we had. I was raised by a 2nd generation working mom. My grandma worked my mom worked so it was pretty much a given that my sister and I would grow up to be working moms. Just a side note here. I can tell you many times when I heard in conversations how my mother yearned to be a stay at home mom but they just didn't believe it was financially possible. I do think in this day and age thanks to our feminist friends that the deck is stacked against those of us who want to stay home with our children. Alas that is another blog for another day.

Back to the subject. lol I can remember ever since I was a little girl all I wanted to do was be a wife and a mom. I spent aimless years in college not knowing what to major in or what to do because I really didn't know what I wanted to be. I guess truly all I ever wanted to be was a stay at home mom. When Tristan was born due to my circumstances I was forced to go back to work when he was just 4 weeks old. My heart ached for him and I was on the verge of tears all day long. (I still say this is why his internal clock is set to 7 am. From almost day one that is when he had to get up for mommy to take him to the sitter so she could go to work.)

When I was finally able to just be a stay at home mom I was very happy. Not long after that I decided to homeschool. I hated sending Tristan to school. I missed him so much during the day and I felt just lost without him. Something just told me that I could do better for him at home.

So anyway my point is I wish I had just been able to follow my heart and be what I always knew God was calling me to be. A wife and a mom. It would have saved me allot of pain and heartache.(Not to mention countless dollars in student loans)

I want my daughters to not be forced out into the world to early. Don't get me wrong. I was never forced out of my home. If I had chosen too I could have stayed in my parents home until I was married. I didn't have to go away to college. The doors at home have always been open to me. I just wanted to make sure no one got the wrong idea. However, it is my hope that my daughters will stay at home until they are married. I hope they will see the glory in being a stay at home mom. I want my daughters to do whatever they are called to do. I don't think there is anything wrong with them going to college or becoming a doctor if that is what God has called them to do. I do however want them to not be ashamed if the choice they make is just to be a stay at home mom. I want them to know it doesn't make them less of a woman. Or less of a contributer to society.

I AM NOT a mindless doormat who has lost her "core self" just because I have CHOSEN to stay at home with my children.

I hope my daughters will be with me until they have families of their own. (My son too if he wants to be). I am in no hurry to get them out into the world and out from under the protection of their parents.