Well Lord willing we will be closing on our house this afternoon. It has been a long process. From what I hear though with all the new rules with homebuying it is going to get harder and harder for first time home buyers to get a house. Unless you have excellent credit.

I do have to confess something though. Monday we thought we were going to close on the house and we didn't then the mortgage broker called and told us that we needed 875 more dollars. Not for closing costs or down payment. Just to have sitting in the bank account. To show we had a certain amount of accetts. Well we had maxed out all the money we had. We had two paychecks and all our savings still sitting in the bank and we still needed more money. I cracked. I threw a fit such as I haven't since I was 5 years old. (not my bust day) I was so upset. How in the world were we going to do this. And without the money we couldn't get the loan. After all of this stress and worry we may not even get the house. After I finally calmed down I called a friend of mine. She and her husband loaned us the money(to hold and look at basically) and she had to sign a paper to say it was a gift. You know in case we were international terrorists or something. ARGH!

Ok I had to tell you that to get to this part. The next morning I get up and my devotion really slapped me in the face. It was about having idols in your life. Here is how you can tell if something has become an idol and you are no longer doing it for God's glory. When it is taken away or challenged you get ANGRY(check) , FRUSTRATED,(check check), and SELF PITYING(check check check). OUCH! that was me in a nutshell. We have prayed throughout this process to get the house. Once we found a house and started the home buying process I had quit praying. When things got challenging I got angry,frustrated, and self pitying. I had put my faith in the mortgage company and all of those people. It was like "ok God you found me a house I can take it from here" DUH not my brightest moment. So he decided to show me who really has control over everything. I have learned something through this. God doesn't always change us sometimes he just gives us opportunities to change. Like when someone prays for patience. He doesn't just make them more patient. He gives them opportunities to learn patience. We are challenged and how we react gives us opportunities to grow and learn.

He had given me more than one opportunity to go to him and pray for strength and faith and patience. But I failed everytime. (I am kind of slow sometimes. Just call me Peter. lol) Finally he just put it there in front of me in black and white. THEN I GOT IT!!!. Well I immediately hit my knees and thanked God for showing me my sin and asked for forgiveness. Then I called my husband and asked for his forgiveness ( I had lashed out at him more than once). As soon as I had done all of that ( I mean almost immediately) the realtor called with a closing time. I am so glad he is the one in control of the universe and not me. lol

Anyway I just had to share. Just be careful anything can become an idol when you aren't using it for God's glory or you start leaving him out.