Feb. 22, 2009 - Okay, So I Said I'd Explain...
Two entries ago I said I was feeling down, and said I'd tell why later. The time has come.
-sigh- Okay, so I'm graduating this year as some of you know, in May actually, May 8th 2009. -feels cool- And I signed up to audition to do a voice solo there. Hm... are we getting the idea of what my problem was/is? Anyway, last meeting (by the way the meetings are monthly) they had the auditions for the instrumental soloists and said the vocal solos would be next month (March). Well, a couple days ago I got an e-mail titled "Update for Vocal Soloists" or something to that effect. Of course I got excited and clicked on it, read it, and felt like sobbing. The upshot of it was that they decided not to have any vocal solos. So my first decision was to cry for a little, then I got rather... irritated. I mean, really! The instrumentalists get their solos, why on earth not the vocalists?!??!?!? I was not a happy camper, and I still am not too pleased. I was really really really really looking forward to auditioning and singing at the graduation. -sigh-
Then, as if that wasn't enough, County Club Day was yesterday. No, that in itself wasn't what was annoying, the skit went excellently, we got a purple and are moving onto regionals, my piano piece got a blue ribbon (which was good seeing as the judge didn't hand out ONE purple) and I'm going on to regionals with that, but my voice piece I performed...
I got a red, which wasn't too bad since he only awarded two blues in the whole senior category, but still hurt. A lot. I wished I was home where I could cry, but that wasn't going to happy since we had responsibilities there, so I ended up writing a *very* uplifting song in my notebook. Yeah. -eyeroll-
Sometimes, I really do wonder what God has against me singing, it seems whenever I go to sing something happens. And of course the devil is always there whispering his stupid lies that actually sound credible when you're that mad and sad. But anyways, it pretty much worked against him really, now I'm thinking it is more like, the devil has something against me singing. -nodnod- He's scared of me. -grin- That's what I'm hoping anywho.
So yeah, there's my rather depressing update... lol
Something more happy now, yes?
We went to my grandparents today for a Mexican feast after church, brought along my Nike puppy so he was able to play with their hyperactive dogs. Watched a couple movies, then me and sister when to a youth leaders meeting and ate pizza, at least I did, sister was allergic to the pizza they had. Now I'm blogging, messing around on facebook and the OYAN forum, and watching National Treasure. Yep, I'm good. 8-)
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Feb. 23, 2009 - I'm Sorry. |
| Posted by YahwehsDaughter |
That all that happened. Did you think of emailing them back and saying, in a very grown up tone(so you don't sound like you are whining cause that may make it worse), how unfair it is that the vocalists don't get a shot at singing? That's what I would do.
Congratulations on graduating!! I still have a few more years. :( lol
I watched NT2 the other day. I think they may come out with a third around 2011. Cool huh? At least you got all that good food and got to watch movies. I got facebook too and I am always messin' around on it too...like right now! lol
Hope you feel better!
Love,
Yahweh's Daughter |
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Feb. 24, 2009 - Untitled Comment |
| Posted by Samii |
No way, you on OYAN? *laughs*
And yes *grin* I blog again *grin* |
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Feb. 24, 2009 - Untitled Comment |
| Posted by BeccaTheGreat |
I understand what you mean.
Sometimes we can feel so stupid, and worthless. But it's not true!
Remember, even though to many people it seems like a big thing, Satan knows that it means a ton to you, and so is trying to hurt you with it.
If it isn't God's timing for you to sing, all I can say is be patient. He always has a reason! My family and I were set on going to Kenya for a year, (my dream at the time) and then God told us through a series of things that we shouldn't go... I was so depressed!
However, after that happened, there were giant riots and shootings in the area we would have been .
He always has a plan! I'm praying for you!
Remember, continue to use your voice to bring glory to His name, even if it isn't through the ways you want.
Becca Danielle |
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Feb. 25, 2009 - Good! |
| Posted by BeccaTheGreat |
I'm glad that I could help, even if only a little!
Good. :) Good days are good. (......duh...... lol. That's redundantly redundant, like my mom would say. )
I've been reading your writing on your other blog about the police and stuff, and it's really good! Haveyou finished it? I want to read more! :)
I think French would be fun if I had a good teacher. You're mom's right, though, it is hard! The words are pretty easy to pick up on, but the pronunciation KILLS me. lol and I'm part French, too! :p
Becca Danielle |
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Feb. 25, 2009 - Lol! |
| Posted by BeccaTheGreat |
I know E.X.A.C.T.L.Y what you mean. Whenever people ask me "Why aren't you writing anymore?" it's usually because I have like 13 - 20 ideas for poems and short stories all jumbled in my head! :p
The problem with being a writer, eh? lol too many things at once, eh? =P
Becca Danielle |
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Feb. 26, 2009 - Untitled Comment |
| Posted by PinkFlamingo |
Hey. Sorry it's taken me so long.
I'm sorry you've had some disappointments with your singing lately. That would be hard. Yeah, it very well could be Satan after you. However, look at it this way, he didn't STOP you from singing at that contest. You didn't get the award you were hoping for, but you still sang.
He might want to get you down and discourage you from singing... but don't let him!
If I might be so bold I'd also encourage you to pray about your motives... WHO are you really singing for?... and about God's plans... how He wants you to use the gift He has given you.
Anyway, I just wanted to come by and say hello. Hope you have a great weekend!
Ashley |
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