Pressing on Toward the Goal: The Incredible Journey
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Wow...it's been a very long time since I blogged, almost 4 months. I seem to spend most of my writing time on Facebook. I really should get back to blogging more. So, what's been up the last several months? Well, August/September began our 4th year of homeschooling...and so far it's gone fairly well...despite a few interruptions. In September we made an unexpected trip up to NH for Brian's grandfather's funeral. He was 90 years old and had a good long life, so while that was a sad event, it was also a great trip as well. We were able to spend time with family, especially Brian's brother from California who we hadn't seen in over 5 years. We were also able to get in a visit with a couple of dear friends. Plus the weather in NH was fabulous...sure beat the hot & humid 90's we had been having in FL during that time. Because it was an unexpected trip, I did make Bridgette bring some school work with her. One of the reasons I LOVE homeschooling is the flexibility! I had her bring her TLP (Total Language Plus) work and her math...having her do a little extra than she normally would, and then when we got back, she could set those aside for a week while she got caught up on everything else. Then October brought about the vacation that Brian and I had planned back in March. To celebrate our 17th wedding anniversary we spent 4 fabulous nights on Anna Maria Island, at this glorious little villa...that seriously was nicer than our own home! We were able to relax on the beach or at the pool. We ate great food especially The Sun House Restaurant that was literally the best dinner I've ever eaten out! Bridgette stayed with my parents while we were away...and yes I gave her school work to do that week as well! October also brought us a second vehicle! Back before Brian's grandfather died, his parents decided that it was time to take his driver's license away. So since he would no longer be driving, we made arrangements to buy his grandfather's van. It's a 1997 Plymouth Voyager, with fairly low mileage for it's age. Every October Brian's parents make a trip down to FL with their motorhome to winter it at their place here in FL (they haven't permanently moved down yet...but it's coming very soon!). So Brian made plans to fly up and drive it home, following his parents down in the motorhome. He'd already purchased his plane ticket when his grandfather died, or we would have planned to drive it home at that point. I can't even begin to tell you how wonderful it is to have this van. I love driving it. We'd been without a second vehicle for over a year, and it was okay at first...but after a while I started to feel trapped...and it was getting really old having to plan EVERY time I needed to go somewhere. Plus now we have a vehicle where we can go places with my parents and be comfortable. My parents have a Toyota Prius, and it's a nice car...but Brian is too tall to sit in the back...so me, my mom and Bridgette sit in the back. Which when they first got it was fine, Bridgette was still a "little" kid then, but once she became a teenager it got kind of squishy for the three of us! Let's see, November...right now we are anxiously awaiting the end of this week, especially Bridgette who finally after 12 weeks of school - get's a real break! We are looking forward to Thanksgiving...my parents are coming to our house this year. And next year we are hoping that Brian's parents will be down here permanently and maybe they can host Thanksgiving?!?! Traditionally we decorate for Christmas the day after Thanksgiving, so we are also looking forward to that. I am truly going to enjoy the season this year. We have family gifts taken care of...in fact we sent our nephews & niece's gifts home with Brian's parents to save on shipping as they were big presents. This past spring Brian won a telescope at the staff & faculty banquet during the door prize drawings where he works. It was a really nice telescope, but unfortunately where we live there is too much light pollution...so we decided to give it to our nephews (ages 11 and 8) for Christmas. They live in the boonies, and should be able to see lots of stars, and since they are also a homeschooling family it's really a perfect gift for them! Our neice (age 4 1/2) is getting all the furniture and the house for Angelina Ballerina (that used to be available through American Girl) which belonged to Bridgette. We had already given her the Angelina doll and clothes and books for her birthday and she loved it! For us...as a family with my parents...we are getting Disney passes for Christmas! Disney has a new option for Florida residents. It's a week-day only seasonal pass (good for a year)...which is fine for us (again the flexibility of homeschooling!) and allows Brian to take a day off every once in a while! Plus being only a half-hour away, we can just go after he get's out of work for a few hours and not feel like tourists trying to get it all in during the day. There are black-out dates with this pass, so our first time going won't be until Jan. 4th, but it gives us something to look forward to after the holidays are over. Not to mention that Bridgette get's an extra day off added to her Christmas break! Well that about covers it for now. I'm going to try not to stay away so long next time! |
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Well, it finally happened. My grandmother is gone. (It's funny I almost thought she would outlive us all!) I'm not sure how I feel exactly. There are a lot of mixed emotions and it's hard to express what is going through my mind. But I'm going to try to put them into words. And maybe I can have closure and actually move on. When I was little, I loved my grandmother…but she wasn't your typical grandmother. First of all my grandparents didn't live near us. We were in New Hampshire, they were in North Carolina. So I really only saw them a couple times a year while growing up. She wasn't your "cookie" baking grandma…although she did make this fabulous cake - Sunshine Cake - LOL! When I was 5 she gave me yarn and material for my birthday (she was going to make me some clothes and a sweater). Now I don't necessarily begrudge her for that (well maybe a little) but, after all I was 5. What 5 year old is going to understand and appreciate the thought behind that? And who knows she may have given me other gifts that were more to my liking as a kid, and I just don't remember them - but that particular gift stands out in my memory. However, it's really not about the gifts …even though gifts as I discovered as an adult is one of my primary love languages. It was not hers. And that's okay. I know for myself I am not always able to give like I want to deep within myself…so I can understand for someone who doesn’t "speak" love in that way isn't going to for the most part. But my other primary love language is words of affirmation…maybe even more so than gifts…at least with her because she wasn't affirming with me. Instead she was critical…but it was always "sugar-coated". She said it was because she loved me and was concerned about me. Which I'm sure she was. But all I really ever wanted was for her to love me just the way I was…but in reality I never really did live up to her "ideal". In my heart I know that it doesn't really matter what she thought of me…God's opinion of me was all that truly mattered. Still it doesn't make the hurt completely go away. And I have forgiven her…but because I am human the memories remain. She was my grandmother and I should have wonderful memories. Don't get me wrong it wasn't horrible all the time…but the critical comments, and well meaning words are sometimes more vivid than any of the times that were positive. So here I am, wondering how I am supposed to feel. I'm sad, but I'm not sure for what reason. Am I sad because she's gone and I loved her...am I sad because I wish she had been different, am I sad because I feel guilty for not having gone to see her with my parents and Bridgette a couple of weeks ago, am I sad that I am relieved she is gone? All of the above? In truth, I've been waiting for her to die for several years now, as harsh as that sound. But I knew that once she did I wouldn't have to worry about hearing anymore of those well meaning critical words. That I would be relieved that it would finally be over. That I would be relieved that Bridgette wouldn't have to experience what I did. I feel horrible for feeling this way…but I am just that…relieved. I'm not sure what exactly the true nature of my grandmother's beliefs were…she claimed to be a Christian and I believed that she was saved even if it was in the simplest of terms…so my prayer is that one day after Jesus returns and we are experiencing eternal life, maybe then we will finally have that loving relationship that I have always wanted..the kind of relationship that I had with my Aunt Mary or with Brian's grandmother even. Only time will tell. Until then, I will try to focus on and remember the positive things about her. She was a talented painter (who didn't start painting until she was in her 50's! See the album "Some of My Grandmother's Paintings) She was a southerner through and through…and as a kid, after spending just a few days around her, I would begin to pick up her accent! I remember some of her distinct saying such as "Oh my stars"! I remember when she finally gave in to being called something other than "Grandmother" after Bridgette was old enough to talk…she became "Great Grandma Ruth"! Even the things that came from her strong "A-type" personality, that at times were aggravating as all get out, looking back are very funny - such as the time she was trying to "out run" a thunderstorm driving on some North Carolina back road! Or how she would get so frustrated with my Grampy (they had been married 60 years when he died in 1998!) when ever he would do something wrong…and she'd say "Oh Paul" with that southern drawl that just can't be mimicked in writing. Or how going to a store with her (in her younger days of 70 or 80!) was so amusing as she would rush down the aisles completely oblivious to whoever she was with or other shoppers…she had a mission to accomplish and wasn't going to let anything get in her way! This mentality showed up in other places too, she was an avid gardener, and even up until a couple years ago, would be out early in the morning every day to work in it. I remember as a kid at their house in North Carolina - before they sold it and moved to Florida - in their basement would be shelves and freezers full of canned or frozen fruits and veggies. She was thrifty and frugal almost to a fault, having gone through the depression…in a very large and poor family. She was an identical twin…the youngest of 30…yes you read that right! Her father had been married twice and had 15 kids with his first wife and after she died, he remarried and had another 15 kids! So in a way, I can understand why she was the way she was. Her life was hard, and it colored the way she looked at everything. The thing that I will take with me in regards to my grandmother, is this lesson…that even if someone isn't the way I think they should be, I will try to not judge them as she always seemed to do (and sometimes that is very hard)…that I will trust God to do whatever changes in that person that he requires…and rely on him to give me the love he wants me to have for that person…that God would give me the eyes to see them as he sees them, not how I think they should be. ("...Man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart." 1 Samuel 16:7) I know in her heart that my grandmother did love me, and so I will look past the outward (how she showed that love in the things she said) and just try to remember that in her heart she did mean well. For me, I want my words and actions to match my well meaning heart…but, boy do I have a long way to go! Thank goodness I trust in a God who says that "I can do everything through him who gives me strength." (Philippians 4:13) |
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Well in about 2 1/2 hours my baby will officially be a teenager! Yes she turns 13 in that brief nanosecond of time between the last moment of February 28th and the first moment of March 1st! She is only 3 1/4 in Leap Years...but acting very much like a grown up young lady (who occassionally has moments of teenager-itis!) Not only is she a teenager now...but she is also maybe an inch away from being taller than me (which when you realize how short I actually am isn't that big of a deal)...and already is one shoe size bigger than me. SIGH! But oh well she is my beautiful girl and I love her very much! So Happy Birthday Bridgette!
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Okay so I said I wasn't going write anymore about this cough...that was until I got some new information that puts a whole new light on the situation. This whole thing for me originated at church...and subsquently my parents got it too...my dad has been more like me while my mom hasn't been nearly as bad...but still coughing none the less. We went thru all kinds of thoughts of what it might be. Wondering about bronchitis or pneumonia...but the symtoms weren't really matching...none of us had fevers at all...and it was the strangest thing to have this horrible choking can't catch your breath and sometimes so violent that it would cause you to throw up cough one minute and feel perfectly fine the next. My joke the whole time was...I feel fine till I'm not, then I feel fine till I'm not again! Well I gotta love my dad....he did some research and found some info on Whooping Cough and bingo.... que lights and bells and buzzers etc...I think we have a winner folks! Here is the link to an awesome website on Whooping Cough This website described pretty much what I've been experiencing this whole time! Also on this website there are audio clips of what whooping cough sounds like...I played one a little bit ago, while Brian was asleep next to me...he woke up when it played and asked if I was recording myself coughing! AH HA...that was confirmation enough for me! From what I read I do believe I'm nearing the end of it...which the average duration is about 7 weeks (I also have to insert here that I overcalculated in my previous post when I said it had been almost 6 weeks...it shoud read 5 weeks not 6)...but it can last for up to 2-3 months or more in severe cases. I don't believe mine to be a severe case and truly think that it's almost done...however even if it does continue for another 2 weeks or more at least I know what it is now and at this stage of the game there isn't really any "treatment" that will help much - so I still have to wait for it to run it's course. You can continue to pray for me and my family and church family that everyone will be protected from severe cases of this illness...that anyone who has it will recover quicker than expected and those who haven't gotten it won't get it. My poor parents haven't been in church almost a month now because of this, and in our small church it's really noticed when people are out sick! I am thankful that my daughter most likely won't get it (at least from this outbreak) because she is still young enough that the vaccination she had when she was little is still protecting her. Apparently the vaccine wears off as you get older...thus the reason I got it. I don't know about Brian, he said he thinks he had whooping cough when he was a kid...and I just read this from the website which makes me feel so much better... When there is no immunization against whooping cough in a population, most will have had the illness by the time they are five years old and will remain immune for the rest of their lives because the illness builds up good antibody levels, and because these antibodies are being boosted by frequent contact with the organism. And to that I say a HUGE PRAISE GOD...cause that means I don't ever have to go thru this again!!!!
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Since my bloggy friend Gina at tlpgina left me a comment in regards to this long lasting cough I've had...going on 6 weeks now. I thought I would post an update about it. Yes this coming Thursday will be 6 weeks since this beastly thing began. She had asked if I had gone to the doctors yet...to which my response was no. Unfortunately, we don't have the money to afford insurance on me or my daughter (my husband's work pays 100% for his, but we are responsible for the rest of the family...and our budget being strapped already just doesn't have room for it...which is scary when you think about it...but we are trusting God for his protection from anything serious) So if you think of it you can be praying for us - 1) that nothing serious will happen to either Bridgette or I and 2) that our financial situation would change so that we might be able to afford insurance again. Another reason for not going to the doctor was that we knew it was a virus...based on the experience of the others at our church who have already had it or are dealing with it now...and so there was really nothing to do but wait it out. Even my dad who had perscription cough meds didn't find that they helped all that much...so I really didn't miss out on anything by not going to the doctor. Okay back to the update on the cough...I do still have it, but it is much, much better. They are not nearly as frequent, I'm not coughing up stuff as much (a little every once in a while - but nothing in comparison to before). And I only woke up once last night/early morning which was a blessed relief...I actually feel like I got a GOOD night's sleep last night! Aside from some other unpleasant personal side effects which I won't go into, the scarriest thing about all of this was when (for about a week or so) I would cough so violently that I actually couldn't catch my breath...and well breathing is kind of an important thing to do! One of the families at our church actually had their 6 month old hospitalized and on oxygen because of this cough...I know how bad it was for me...can't imagine the same thing with a baby. So I will make this the last of my cough posts (other than maybe later just to say it's all gone!!!) but know that I am doing better and I say thank you to any who have prayed for me...it's been greatly appreciated! Have a great rest of the week! |
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