Romans 3:23- For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.

Romans 6:23- The wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is life through Christ Jesus our Lord.

Romans 5:8- But God demonstrates His own love towards us in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.

Romans 10:13- Whoever shall call on the name of the Lord shall be saved.

Romans 10:9-10- If you confess with your nouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you shall be saved; for with the heart man believes, resulting in righteousness, and with the mouth he confesses, resulting in salvation.

  Last night when I got home from writing Ambers *dynamite* speech I felt a sadness come over me. For  you to understand my sadness I am going to tell you a little about my beloved friend.....

 I have known Amber since the day she was born, she is one year younger than me. Growing up we were aways very competitive but looking back on it now I wish we hadn't been. She has always been home schooled, unlike me.  She has alway had it so easy.  Amber is beautiful , tall, nice, everyone loves her! She has the best social skills.  But she isn't very smart.

 What she doesn't have is the ability to think before she acts. I don't mean this meanly. Another thing is she can't read or write, she has no english skills. The sad thing is it shows when she talks. Sometimes it's hard being the "best" friend, with that title comes the responsibility to help your friend even when they hate you for it. Being the kind of person that I am...I can't do that very easily, and I don't think it's the time for it either.

 Ok, now back to my sadness. One of our friends called shortly after I had finshed writing the speech and Amber sad, "Do you want to hear my speech?" She killed it! Not in a good a way either. I almost cried then and there. I am very passionate about all the speech I write, no matter if I am to give the speech or someone else. I love writing many things but speeches are my first love when it come to writing.

 Amber still has a chance to win, though. I put the dynamite in one hand and in the other she is holding a lite match, I only hope she doesn't blow it out!

 Last night my friend Amber called and told me she need help writing a speech. So at some point today I am going over there to write a speech. What bugs me about this is that she is giving her speech on Monday! You can not write a speech one day and then two days later give that same speech. The worst part is she has to win! So I have my work cut out for me, I may not write very good, or it would seem form these blog enteries, but I can write one hell of a speech!

 A few nights ago my mom and I were talking about college, we talk about that a lot! Anyway, she really doesn't want me to go to Ausrtalia in three years. "You are to young, it would be better for you and me if you went when you are older." So mom and I are working something like this out:

  Next year I will go to Hawai'i Pacific University (HPU), after I get my BS Degree I am going to Australia to finsh school maybe get a PhD. Why HPU? Because I love the coral reefs and there's a coral reef about 20 minutes form campus! I have been reaserching the University for the past two days, and nights, and it seems like a pretty good place to go to college. Mom would love it if I would stay in the south, but my heart isn't here not in the south. I could go to Florida, but that wouldn't do either. Hawai'i and then Australia, that's the plan.

 Yes, this road just became two years longer. But I think in the long run it's for the best. By the time I go to Townsville, Ausrtalia I will know how to manage my money, friendships, and my life better. I have been known to get very home sick in the past and mom doesn't want me to be in another country and get home sick, I wouldn't be able to come home if that happened!

  My mom was talking to one of her firends form college who has one child in college and two children out of college. Anyway, she is the one who told mom not to let me go to Australia at such a young age. She also said "It's better if her heart gets broken while she's at home than when she's away, a least if she's home when it breaks you are there for her." I don't know why I put that in this blog but I have been thinking about what that lady told my mom, and I am starting to think she may be right!

A SIGHT THAT REVELATIONS TALKS OF...I HAVE NEVER SEEN ANYTHING SO
MARVELOUSLY DESCRIBED THAT DESCRIBES THAT DAY....WHAT DO YOU THINK?
By Max Lucado

You are in your car driving home. Thoughts wander to the game you want
to see or meal you want to eat, when
suddenly a sound unlike any you've ever heard fills the air.
The sound is high above you.
A trumpet?
A choir?
A choir of trumpets?
You don't know, but you want to know.

So you pull over, get out of your car, and look up. As you do, you see
you aren't the only curious one. The roadside has become a parking lot.
Car doors are open, and people are staring at the sky. Shoppers are
racing out of the grocery store.

The Little League baseball game across the street has come to a halt.
Players and parents are searching the clouds. And what they see, and
what you see, has never before been seen.

As if the sky were a curtain, the drapes of the atmosphere part. A
brilliant light spills onto the earth. There are no shadows. None. From
whence came
the light begins to tumble a river of color spiking crystals of every
hue ever seen and a million more never seen. Riding on the flow is an
endless fleet of angels. They pass through the curtains one myriad at a
time, until they occupy every square inch of the sky.

North.
South.
East.
West.

Thousands of silvery wings rise and fall in unison, and over the sound
of the trumpets, you can hear the cherubim and seraphim chanting, Holy,
holy, holy.
The final flank of angels is followed by twenty-four silver- bearded
elders and a multitude of souls who join the angels in worship.

Presently the movement stops and the trumpets are silent, leaving only
the triumphant triplet: Holy, holy, holy. Between each word is a pause.
With each
word, a profound reverence. You hear your voice join in the chorus. You
don't know why you say the words, but you know you must.

Suddenly, the heavens are quiet. All is quiet.


The angels turn, you turn, the entire world turns and there He is.

Jesus.

Through waves of light you see the silhouetted figure of Christ the
King.
He is atop a great stallion, and the stallion is atop a billowing cloud.

He opens his mouth, and you are surrounded by his declaration:
I am the Alpha and the Omega.

The angels bow their heads.
The elders remove their crowns.
And before you is a Figure so consuming that you know, instantly you
know:
Nothing else matters.
Forget stock markets and school reports.
Sales meetings and football games.
Nothing is newsworthy..
All that mattered, matters no more....
for Christ has come.

And, please let me know the exact time you read this. It is

mystical--honest

This morning when the Lord opened a window to Heaven, he saw me, and he
asked:

My child, what is your greatest wish for today?


I responded:
"Lord please; take care of the person who is reading this message, their
family and their special friends.They deserve it and I love them very
much"

The love of God is like the ocean, you can see its beginnings but Not
its end.

ANGELS EXIST, but sometimes, since they don't all have wings we call
them FRIENDS, SUCH AS YOU.

 I went to bed at 8 last night and that's a never for me. I woke up around 12 a.m. and didn't go back to bed until 5. Thankfully mom let me sleep to one this afternoon.

 My head is killing me, everything is foggy, I can't hear a thing, I can't talk and it is only getting worse as the day gose by. Mom is worried 'cause I won't eat anything. She also wants to take me to the doctor! I hate doctors.

 I feel very confused and nothing is making any since to me right now, so I guess you could say I'm rambling (is that spelled right).

 In my confusion I deleted all 400+ songs on my i-pod! I am pretty upset at that. Also I couldn't figer out how to sign into msn messenger. Talk about being confused! Yea, so that's how my day is going. Bye

~Marina~

 Good afternoon. Heres something I wrote:

                                               "Pain"

 Pain is only a small thing standing in the way of something large. Sometimes the pain is too much and we can't keep fighting. Sometimes the thought of pain is unbearable, therefore, we evade it.

 Pain is nothing more than nothing at all. We have to go through pain so that we can become the people we can be.

Well, I am still working on it. The reason I am writing about pain is because I just got back from the dentist. I really need ti STOP coming to work with mom, every time I end up in a lot of pain. Pain I can take, but pain none the less is pain. This pain is giving me a head ache. Bye

~Marina~

"Enbrace Your Dreams"

Fall in love with life!

Enbrace your dreams with passion!

Look beyond where others have been

To see where you would go.

"Stretch Your Dreams"

Only as high as I can reach can I grow,

Only as far as I seek can I go,

Only as deep as I look can I see,

Only as much as I dream can I be.

"Bright Tomorrows"

It is in dreaming the greatest dreams...

Seeking the highest goals...

That we build the brightest tomorrows.

Tomorrows are only todays

Waiting to happen.

 Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who ask receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.

Matthew 7:7-8

  Do you ever feel like your drowning in the ocean? Perhaps not. But, then agin, perhaps you are. Am I drowning in the ocean? That's a good question. No, I don't think I am. I could be, but wouldn't you know it you were? Doesn't seem like something you can do and not know about. I may or may not be making any since. 

  In life where do you go? Strange question I know, but it's worth some thought. Thank about it:

• Do you stay right where you are?
• Do you go North?
• Do you go South?
• Do you go West?
• Do you go East?

  In life who are your friends and who are your enemies? Why don't you get to choose your family, but get to choose you friends?

  I may have lost you somewhere in that mix of questions, sorry. But now you have a few things to think about. Or a least I do. 

  Perhaps is a cool word, I really like it. How random was that!?!

~Marina~ 

 Ok, so they're funny, but that's not all they are. For being so bone minded, they know when to be there when you need them. I have never known those guys to be quiet, especially when thy're togther. But about three hours ago they were the best friends I've ever had!

 Josh and Ben sat there with me for the longest time, just to hear what I was thinking, and to take up with the silence. No sound, just silence among us three. After time had passed, the sun had long gone down, there were no more tears, we were sitting on Ben's dad's boat, taking in the river smell. Then they stode up and said "Sometimes things like this happen, but it's nothing you can't handle. If it was placed on you then God knows you, if anyone, can handle it."

 I have never thought about life in that way. God only places things in your path if he knows you can overcome it. I've always known something like that, but not in this way.

 Thanks to Josh and Ben life is once agin something I can face! If I didn't know those two strange guys life would be boring, hard, more confusing, and not funny. Laughing is a not stop right now. *They are sitting across the room, joking around, and like always, making me laugh!*

 Tomorrow is unknown, I may cry, I may laugh, I may do nothing at all. Josh and Ben have been praying with me today. Praying that I come out of this confusion, and keep my heart where it is right now. Where would I be to night without them? If I didn't know Josh and Ben I might be with a broken heart, or perhaps not. But this is the way I wish to think, if only for the time being. Good night.

 The weekend was the worst! DP and I got togther this afternoon, we had only seen each other for 15 minutes when we had a MAJOR fight! A fight I don't think we can recover from. But, perhaps, God has someone else in mind for me?

 I always thought I really loved DP but I still have my heart, sure it hurts but I'm not heartbroken. I feel sooo confused right now. All the times I cried on his shoder, all the things we've faced togther. All the love we shared, all the friends I have from knowing him, all the friends he has from knowing me? What will tomorrow bring with it? Will I feel the loose then? Will that felling ever come? In the years to come will we be friends? Can we be "just friends"? Is that possible with someone you once loved?

 My confusion has to be met by the Lord and his word. I know a few verses that can help me to find a peace of mind. If anyone knows of anything in the Bible about confusion, love, lost love, friendship, lost friendship, just anyhting let me know......

"But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."

Isaiah 40:30-31

 If you have ever seen a red headed, yellow eyed, watts breath, snoty toed, green faced, black nosed, arrow minded whatchathingy. Then I would say "Are you out of your mind!?"

 Have you ever read the book "Fox in Socks"? Yes? Good. Then go and read it two times really fast right now! If you can that is. No, you haven't read the book before? Go read that book. "But that's a kids book?" I know! That's all part of the fun.

 Don't stop reading this pintless blog...........

It's pointless, randomness, not so awesomeness great, crazy, without reason!

Josh and Ben talking.......

 "I hit a small animal while driving and now I feel bad"-Josh

"You'll get over it and live"-Ben

"But what about the, oh wait a sec...I don't think that was ever an animal, dude"-Josh

"Dude, you should so see your face right now, dude! Ah, dude...."-Ben

"Now what, you pig headed, bone of an a**, what was that for"-Josh

"Nothing, 'cept I'm the greatest to ever live, unlike you!"-Ben

"Yea, man, in your dreams that might be true. Oh wait, I forgot; I'm taking over your dreams along with everything else. Anything I should know about?"-Josh

Yep, Josh always wins at the end of anything they say. Tune in next week when Josh and Bed, hey wait...Josh, Ben! What happened to the script!?!

 Hahaha, Josh and Ben are two cool guys who hang around. I told them about this blog over the phone, and they wanted me to say stuff about them. At the top of this page, before "Josh and Ben talking", is a little something they told me a few weeks ago. It's totally pointless. "Foxs in Socks" thing, please don't ask me. It's yet another one of their famus sayings. 

 I said something about being sick the other day. Let me tell you all about yesterday......

 I woke up at 2:13 P.M., walked up the stairs and sat down in the big chair (the chair my brother and I fight over). After about 30 minutes I went and slept in mom's bed, I always sleep on her bed when I'm sick (I say it's a magic bed). At 5:49 I woke up coughing.

 I was coughing for about 3 hours, even though I was taking cough medican (is that spelled right). Once the coughing stoped....I started sneezing. Sneezing is worse than coughing!!!! I was up until about 6 this morning 'cause I couldn't stop, every 3 minutes I would sneeze once agin. My chest is hurting! I'm still sneezing, or I would be asleep. I think I slept two hours this morning.

 I missed speech yesterday 'cause I couldn't talk at all. Now I have to give two speeches which means I have to stand in front of a lot of people for 15 minutes now, instead of 8.

 I'm feeling a little better right now, only because mom is making me eat oranges *gags at thought*. I want ice cream but I can't have milk products.

 Being sick messes up life! I missed my hair appointment, my dentist appointment, movie night with the girls, and I'm going to miss shopping tomorrow with *other* people.

I lost my Bible so this is right of the top of my head, if I can think stright that is.....

"In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. The earth was without form, and void; and drakness was on the the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God was hovering over the face of the waters.

Genesis 1:1-2

Ok, so I gave two verses today, I wasn't here yesterday, but I love those two verses. 

 He's only 2 1/2 years old, but he's the bravest person I know! I'm not sure how long he's had cancer, but he always greets everyone with a smile. Monday he went to the doctor in hope of getting his centerl line remover, but instead greeted with the news of "Something's not right. We'll have to do some more tests."

 The family left devastated and in tears. They will be going back to see the test results on Monday. I know I say these words a lot...but please pray for him and his loving family.

 Where the Spirit

of the Lord is,

there is Freedom.

2 Corinthians 3:17

 How's everyone's day going? I really hope better than mine. I'm sicker than sick can be :(.

 I really want to see DP this afternoon but I don't want him to get sick. So once his plane lands I'm going to call him and tell him that he can't come over *ache shoots though heart*

 Well at least we can talk on a land line, instead of using up all our minutes, hahahaha.

 I think speech class is out of the qusetion for me. But please pray that I'm a little better by tomorrow. Thank you.

~Marina~

 Ok so I was reading Exodus 1 and I have three things to say about it:

1. Please read Exodus 1, it's only only one chapter it won't take five minutes.

2. TheEgyptians feared the Israelites. So what did they do? They put slave masters over God's people and worked them ruthlessly!

3.Why did the Egyptians fear the Israelites? Because they were too numerous. The Egyptians feared that during a time of war the Israelites would join their enemies.

 We all have those friends, friends who do wrong things and try to get you to do as well. Next time stop just long enough and think about the midwives. Once you read this chapter you will know what I'm talking about.

                                                                  ~Marina~