Dec. 18, 2008 - more depressing news....
Okay, two things. First is the less depressing one. Secound one makes my soul hurt.
First is, today was blasted cookie day. I hate cookie day. Its really loud , crazy, chaotic, and to many bloody sweets are produced. anyhow, aside from the million people resideing at my house currently, I saw my friend whos annoyed at me.
Of course her and her bf were all over each other. I had come back from dropping a friend off at his work and i went to go hang out with them and i stood around for like 5-10 mins and i wasn't hardly acknowledge cause her and her bf (lets call the girl Jill, her bf Jack) were wrestiling on the trampoline. Eventually i got cold and went inside. I was inside for like an hour or so before they came up to my room to find me.and of course Jack and Jill were there together. and i asked the guys to leave at one point. and they all asked why, i said my room no guys. and like 2 of the 3 left. Jack didn't leave. I asked him to leave again, and he told me he was supervising Jill and me. I asked Jill why we couldn't be alone (jack also mentiond something like that..) and Jill said that her parents think im a bad influence.... that hurts my feelings. Just cause i tell Jill that i cant keep her cutting secret a secret anymore (after like, 6 months) and she needs to tell an adult before i do... im a bad influence. and Jills dad also threw out the fact i have an 18 y/o bf... and thats bad.. and hes not really my bf. and i only see him like twice a year at church events... its not like i see or talk to him all the time. I don't understand how trying to save there daughters life makes me a bad influence and im not allowed to be left alone with her. yet Jack and Jill were pratically on each others lap the whole time while they were in my room... *head bangs wall* I dont get it... thats another very annoying situation. and we wont go there for your sake. so yea.. im not allowed to be alone with my only best girl friend... cause im a bad influence... i don't understand that. Im not any worse than the rest of her friends.
Secound, my friend in the millitary admits to being possessed. okay, i need to tell the story...(this is what i sent to a few pastors...)
Okay, normally i wouldn't email you guys, but i really just can't let this go, and he needs all the prayer he can get. I have a friend who is in the army. He 'accepted' Christ about a year ago, but i soon found out after youth camp that he wasn't a Christian anymore and was currently doing Shintoism, but even than he wasn't even really into that. He started the line of thinking that God has a dark side, and has 3 or 4 children on His dark side. I would (and still am) talking and asking him questions about his current belief while questioning him about souls,God, and such. I was talking to him tonight and talking about going to Arlington cemetery and how i wanted to cry. He mentioned that when he was there that he had cried, and something about that he might end up there one day. I replied with something along the lines of 'I would be really heartbroken if you died young.' he asked why and i replied that one of the reasons was of his salvation. He said that i should know that he wasn't a Christian, and i said i knew that but i hope that he would be. he than told me that his current religion was Paganism. i clarified and asked if that meant the one with the herbs and the star pentagram and bit my tongue in order not to say ' oh, so the less dark version of satanic worship.' he then proceed to tell me he was a Necromancer. when i asked what that was (cause i was told that summoning spirits was wrong) he told me to look it up. and i tried. but i went to a web site and i started to freak out while it was loading. so we then proceed on the conversation about Necromancer. he told me all this stuff about him summoning bodies in order to watch the decomposition on the bones and flesh and that they could do it by the energy left in there bodies. I asked where they got the energy. if it was a soul, or just whatever was left in the body. and i also asked about if we even did have a soul, and how would the whole energy work since or souls would either be in Heaven or Hell. he told me that our souls leave a trace of energy behind, and when they summon the bodies, the soul can either decide to come back to the bodies or just leave it be. I asked him if he has ever summoned a body, and he said he has, but it took so much energy from him that he passed out. (i being human, laughed at this, slightly please that he hadn't quite done it) i asked if he had seen any one do it, and he said he has. after that tid bit, i told him that i don't think that souls can come back into the body and it was actually demons. he than told me he had 'a' demon inside of him that was given to him when he became a necromancer. I than freaked out. i asked if it had a name, and he said it doesn't and that its just a energy. i told him again that he was trending in dangerous waters. he said he knew that, but he knew that he 'has' more control over the demon than the demon has. (i laughed sightly again.) but, to me, it was one thing when he was going from like Shintoism, to thinking God has a dark side... that bugged me, but this just absolutely terrifies me. cause he knows hes messing around with demons and he doesn't seem to care. and i know i can't be the only one praying for him all the time. simply because I forget, and I'm just one person and he needs more than that i believe. this time, my soul actually hurts and i really am about to cry. the other times i was really sad that Satan was getting a hold of him. but now it just off the chain. I also already worry about him a lot because of him being in the army and him possibly being sent to an infantry division. If you guys could just pray for him, i would really appreciate it.
Oh, he tends to change religion every couple of months, which is.. good? but now that hes possessed... thats not going to change untill hes a Christian. so im just really freaking out about this. its really sad.
Other than that.. i think life is alright. I got to see a guy friend i hadn't seen in a while. we had a somewhat nice (it was awkward) convo. and then i saw one of my bros friends who hasn't been around in a couple of weeks. that made me happy also.
-Nikki
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| Posted by shadow14 |
| wow thats kinda scary and sad and i feel so sorry for him and i will pray for him |
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