Oct. 10, 2005 - Be Prepared
Be prepared. What does that mean and can we ever be fully prepared?
Many weeks ago I began preparing for our upcoming school year. I gathered all my materials, outlined my plan and set to work. I planned our days off for the baby's birth and knowing that may have to change, I compensated for the "what if's", or so I thought.
Also many weeks ago, I set up doctors appointments and scheduled a few things that I knew needed to be done before the baby's birth. I thought getting those ducks in order would make me better prepared. I thought.
Several months ago I began to research my condition and prepare my heart for what lie ahead Again, thinking I had prepared myself for the worst case scenario. But had I?
Proverbs 21:31 says, "The horse is prepared against the day of battle: but safety is of the LORD." I guess I'm feeling like the horse, arming mysef for battle, yet forgeting in Whom my safety lies in. Placing my full safety and trust in the Lord to deliver me from the battles that wage on all around me, was not happening. Some battles are trifle little things, some are much bigger. I have found over the last few days that I did not bathe these battles in as much prayer as I'd fooled myself into believing. Laying awake last night, it was like a smacking into a brick wall. What is my battle and what preparations have I made and where does my true safety lie?
I had fooled myself into believing that by doing these *things* I was assuring a positive outcome. Not that any of those *things* were inerrantly wrong mind you, but I was trusting in the *things* to deliver me! The only thing that would deliver me from the well-stream of battles going on around me is my One and Only Heavenly Father. Only He knows the future and can thus fully prepare me for it.
What was the ultimate battle? The hills and valleys that I was looking at? Or something entirely different that lay beyond? I believe it is something entirely different.
It's always such a growing process, learning to rely on God fully and totally. Some days it's so easy, hey I thought I was doing it those many weeks ago. But there is something about being totally dependant on others that makes you see that in reality you are totally dependant upon God!
So how am I doing in my preparedness and dependancy? School, yes that will always need my prep work, but more of it is going before God's throne. Doctors and appointments, well I give up....the past few weeks have almost caused me more despair than I can deal with, so yep, I give that to God too. A normal pregnancy turning high risk, placenta previa, bed rest...talk about totally depending on God!! Lesson learned!!
Do I think we should do no preparing? Nope, I think God instructs us to prepare, yet we are not to worry about what tomorow may bring. I can definitely prepare without worry when I fully rely on his safety for the battle ahead.
(Ok so my bag that was supposed to be packed last week still is not packed. *blush* But God will meet my every need!)
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Oct. 11, 2005 - THANKS
Posted by Anonymous
Dawn: Thank you for the comment on my blog. I also really appreciate your answers on the HK board about boundaries. That has given me something to chew on for the next few days. A lot of times when we post -- we are giving a lot of details about one situation. People leave thinking that is how the person is the entire time. I wasn't sure I was liking the image people were getting of my dh... so I'm going to try to repair the damage done today. Ü
THANKS again for sharing your wisdom with me. I LOVE friends who share. Would really LOVE to meet you IRL. What fun we'd have -- sharing!
AND... I frequent the 'Plush Pony' in my town. If I knew you IRL... it would be your store -- hands down! Ü I'm praying for you... only 6 weeks to go... right?
