OK, I know I did a Sonlight journal before - and only made one entry in it. But this time it's for real. After all, the first time I was only supposed to do it for one or two weeks. This time, I'm required to keep a journal for the entire school year. Plus, I'm supposed to keep a journal for the SALTeam Bible study I'm doing for AIM, Jesus on Leadership. So I guess I'm going to have to keep a journal whether I like it or not.

I've really come to despise journaling. Mom made me keep one for several years, and I absolutely hated it. That hatred has worn off somewhat, but still, I'm just not a journaler. I'll start one, and then I'll get so far behind with things I want to write about that I just get discouraged and give up. I guess that can't happen anymore. So this journal might not be as thorough as I'd like, but it should be fairly regular. At least two entries per week.

My Jesus on Leadership journal is supposed to focus on things like my response to the Bible study and other things that God has been teaching me. Blech. I hate "spiritual" journals even more than just normal everyday journals. I guess I'll try to do that a little bit, but I'm not sure how much I can bring myself to do.

My journal for Sonlight is supposed to be focused on my response to the things I'm learning through my 20th Century World History course. As I work through this course, I'm supposedly going to come upon a lot of things that disturb me, and it's going to help me work through issues to be able to write my thoughts out on paper... yadda yadda yadda. Yeah, right. I'll try, but I don't know how much 20th Century is going to make it in here, either. I do live in the 21st Century, ya know.

I know this is sounding really bad and rebellious and not at all like me. Those of you who know me probably think I must have a ghostwriter, because this is a side of me that is rarely seen. You see, I'm a lot more stubborn than most people realize. I've stubbornly refused to keep a journal for lo these many years, and being suddenly required to keep two, plus being told what to write in them, really sets my teeth on edge. I'll do it, because I don't let my stubbornness carry over into disobedience unless I'm told to do something that goes against the Bible, but I'm not promising that I'll be happy about it. No way.