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This Walk
Apr. 30, 2009
Just When I Thought I'd Had Enough...
It's May of the first year of homeschooling. The first year back as a stay-at-home mom after two exhausting (yet sometimes rewarding) years of public school teaching so that I could come home permanently . The first year of life for my precious little Stephen. The first year of the church God put it on our hearts to launch, The House of Prayer Missionary Baptist Church. The first year of conducting the women's bible study God told me to start five long years ago (I told you I am a work in progress). Lots of firsts.
Yes, I am exhausted...exasperated...befuddled...and feeling a bit hoodwinked by all of those lovely homeschooling parents who make it all sound so easy. And yet...just when I am ready to throw in the towel and tell my husband I have had it, God sends in restoration for my weary soul.
Stephen, my nine month old, took his first steps two days ago and I got to have that beautiful moment all to myself. In that moment, I knew why I was here. Why my battlefield is here at home instead of somewhere else. Why God has chosen me for this moment and this time: because no other human being, and I mean absolutely no one else, can love my babies like I love my babies. Only I will truly rejoice over those firsts, and cry tears of joy when victory comes after months of struggling to teach letter and number recognition. Only I will have a mother's patience to hold a screaming baby while listening to a five year old mourn the loss of his dream of getting on the yellow school bus (which stops one door past our house, by the way), and riding off with all of the other "normal big kids, mom."
In that one sweet moment of time, I felt a silent "Well Done." I can keep moving, though sometimes crying, towards the homeschool finish line. I can continue to try to juggle the needs of two rowdy boys with a five year gap between them, and attempt to show them the love of Christ everyday while I do it (yes, that was meant to be funny. I struggle daily with the whole patience thing). I can continue to greet my fabulous husband at the end of his work day with a tight smile and a "rescue me" expression on my face. I can do all of this because my God is the God who sees me. He sees me and he knows just what I need when I need it in order to carry on with this dual calling of wife/motherhood. |
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Apr. 29, 2009
Introducing....
| The Wicks Family!!!! My name is Trina and I am the proud, yet humbly blessed, wife of my brilliant husband, Andrew. We have the joy of raising two wonderful little rowdy boys, Andrew (5) and Stephen (9 mos). I am so excited about starting this blog. It took me a while to find the time, but after much hemming and hawing, and aww-shucking, I just finally decided there is no time like right now. So, I plan to talk about our lives raising these two little blessings to the glory of God, along with the joys and heart aches of trying to walk a life before Him that is pleasing. I blow that one often! But with his grace, I get up, allow Him to dust me off, and we keep right on stepping. Join me and pray with me as I share glimpses of my life with all of this testosterone surrounding me. I'm glad to be here! More info coming later. |
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