Oct. 11, 2007 - confession... |
So here we go...(no not anything too awful--well depends on how you look at it.) I've gone back and forth about this blog and the reason why is our kids are (deep breath) in public school this year.
A bit of history here. We lived in a place with crowded schools, many problems in classes and we are a Christian home. Also, many of our friends homeschooled and it was greatly supported by our church
and the surrounding area (so much available!) It really just seemed natural to homeschool.
But this summer we moved to a quiet little town in New England, you know that place where the teacher taught your sister, your aunt, your mother maybe even your grandmother (okay that might be pushing it but you know what I mean!)
However, this truly wasn't the reason. I was tired, working full time all of the sudden, adjusting from being away from what I had known for 10 years and my family...and I didn't trust my dear Lord. Those little thoughts quickly pushed their way in, "they won't have any friends", "you can't do this", "am I ruining their lives?".....and on and on.
But let me tell you something, our dear Father uses everything to HIS glory. In my insecurities He provided teachers that are perfect for my boys, confirmation that our homeschooling last year really did sink in (as laxed as it was), some quiet time with our little guy, a chance for them to enjoy new friends and their own friends (as they are close in age) and finally...WHY I want to homeschool. I sat their one day and asked the Lord "I know why I am suppose to homeschool, but WHY am I suppose to homeschool?" Well, He allowed me a chance to see. I've been able to sit in my kindergartener's class for the whole day and see their schedule and learn so much from his teacher and also to see what I should be doing at home. I was sad when I couldn't say to one of his classmates how beautiful the butterfly was that GOD created.
I love my boys dearly, I miss them during the day and I am honored to know that God has told me to ask and then to be patient:)
"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives ; he who seeks finds; to him who knocks, the door will be opened...If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask Him!" Matthew 7:7-8, 11
So my friends, I am still a homeschooling mama, just in a bit of a different season and knowing how faithful my Lord is and His amazing grace for my many shortcomings. I've learned so much this summer- gratefulness, trust, increasing faith, submission, love:) I am trusting my Father knows what is now and to come and seeing His power in all things right now-I don't want to miss a moment!
I used to think all people should homeschool and if they did otherwise then they were selfish. Well, I got a gentle kick! I love homeschooling and feel it is right for our family and do believe anyone can homeschool...BUT it has to be something the Lord is calling you to do and your willing to accept (that is the hard part-giving your all) But He makes you capable of doing His will-for in our weakness, He is our strength. We need to battle our flesh and the lies from the things unseen and trust in the Lord! For He loves us!!!
Be blessed in your homes, your schooling and in your hearts. May Jesus be first in your home and your priorities in line with His will and may there be agreement in your home:)
God bless! |
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Oct. 12, 2007 - Untitled Comment |
| Posted by VATerri |
| I love ya Bree! What a refreshing post. Thank you for sharing what is on your heart. God bless ya! |
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Oct. 23, 2007 - Untitled Comment |
| Posted by Sarah |
| You are such a sweetie, Bree. Love ya! |
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Nov. 7, 2007 - Untitled Comment |
| Posted by quietcajun |
| I can relate. Two of my five are in school this year. But how my heart breaks. :( |
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"The Lord your God will bless you in all your harvest and in all the work of your hands, and your joy will be complete."
Deuteronomy 16:15
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