"Bug off", I used to say that to my children until I realized that one day they would say that to me (cause they learn what they live), I learned that my children come before my friends on the phone and even myself. I do deserve a break today but in my deservations with myself--I do not want to DE-SERVE(what is the meaning of the prefix de ?)my own precious flesh and blood.

We forget, until we meditate on the life span time we have used and may have remaining in their lives at how quickly the time is flying by--how much time we have left to make a difference. My friends did not refresh me like the true moment I had feeding my boys under the table gummy worms from my own mouth--(yeah--isolated Moms with three boys in diapers get desperate)but now in a strange way I am proud that I was Big Bird. Are you my Mother? by Dr. Suess haha No doubt reading this book over and over helped the notion to pretend to be a Momma Bird. Who is most important and what is competing for that place in your day? Christ over sleep and children over "friends"? Computer over planning time? To find the balance ask, "Did that serve me, refresh me, give me a new perspective or drain my life? Use hindsight for foresight next time.