I am in my "high" season.  Baking.  Three markets a week plus some other dessert baking I'm doing for some friends.  I love to bake, though right now I must admit, I'm a bit spent.  I enjoy what I'm doing but right now I don't have much time for anything else.  Although it looks as if I'm going to be getting a day off on a regular basis.  I now have very stiff competition at one of the markets and it is really wiping me out as far as how much I sell.  It really is amazing how so many people walk by and smile and say they love bread but can't have it, then I see them walk right over to my competitor and buy armloads of white bread and sweet rolls and so on.  I stopped baking my white bread for that market and started concentrating on whole grains and so on and specialty breads, but it doesn't seem to matter much.  I have my regular people that come to me, but it is not enough to make it worth my time, gas and effort to go there anymore.  This is the land of free enterprise, so I wish no ill will.  I am bothered by some of the hypocrisy that I'm seeing though.  My competitor is of a certain group that is easily identified and that seems to be the biggest draw.  I know that she runs a commercial style kitchen, we conversed a few times, and does most of her bread making by machine.  I have a small kitchen and all my bread is made by hand.  Artisan style.  This is so breaking my saying nothing if I can't say anything positive post that I wrote previously.  Well, I work really hard, I get up before the sun and go to bed really late and barely sit down in between times and its frustrating. 

On a better note, we have a name!  We are now CrossRoads Community Church.  Our new church finally voted on a name last Sunday and we now have an identity besides the "Rebel Baptists" that we have been hearing in the community.  (Some jokingly and some not).  We are ready to move forward, Sunday school started about a month ago and a teen Bible study/ Youth group started about two weeks ago.  We are actively looking for a building and still earnestly seeking Gods wil for His church.   Please pray for our Pastors wife as her father just found out he has cancer and is not sure if he will be able to have surgery or make it through surgery.

Part of the reason that we moved here to this part of the country, (that still does not feel like home), is to help with my m-i-l.  She has been doing farily well, forgetting things and such, but nothing to alarming until the last 5 to 6 weeks.  She has fallen 3 times in that time frame and can not get herself up when it happens.  Yesterday she fell really early in the morning and layed on the floor for three hours waiting until my dh got off work to call us.  He had to go help her up and when he got there to help her he had to call his brother to help him, because she had no strength to help pull herself up.  She is also getting really confused and rattled easily.  She has not broken any bones in any of these falls, but she gets really bruised and gets small cuts that bleed like crazy.  Dh, his brother and his aunt had a meeting yesterday to decide what needs to be done.  A nursing home is being discussed, but it is such a difficult decision to make.  She would lose all her independence and I hate to see her lose that.  Please keep her and our family in prayer when you think of this.  I know thousands of people go through this every day, but it never gets any easier.  This is a whole new ball game for us.  My grandparents are still in their own home and relativly healthy.  They are in their 80's and I can't imagine having to place them anywhere.  I think they will stay in their home until the end and I'm sure once one goes, the other will follow very shortly.  Another set of grandparents of mine both passed away last summer exactly one month apart.  They had been together over 60 years. 

Well blessing to you all, have a great weekend.