This is not my favorite holiday!  I don't know why, but for some reason it leaves me sad and annoyed.  I look forward to the New Year.   I only look back with small regrets for the most part.   I have had this feeling about New Year's Eve since I was a child.  I remember being excited about banging pots and pans with spoons, (this was a tradition at dad's house), but other than that, it was always a meloncholy time for me.  This year we plan to spend the evening at our Pastors' home with other church family playing games and probably eating too much.  It should be fun.  I look forward to it.  But again, not thrilled about the whole "holiday".  Oh well.

I've been meaning to write for weeks now.  I've taken up reading other blogs and I've let that consume my time.  In reflecting on this last year, it has been an especially tough one for us.  That alone has some part in why I haven't been posting.  I didn't want to come on here and only have depressing things to say.  Anyway, I found a new job, through the temp agency and it looks to turn into a permanent situation.  yeah!  I'm glad for that, we need the stablilty.  I will miss being a keeper at home.  I will miss the ability to be here to do things with my dd during the day and all that goes with that, however the financial strain that we've been under will hopefully lighten and that will enable me to not be so stressed.  I've been fighting a real battle with not becoming depressed and it was a daily battle that I didn't always win.  I never took meds or went to see anyone about it, but it was there, lurking, waiting for anything to go wrong and for me to allow it to take over.  We are still in our realllllly small dwelling and you would think that I would be able to keep it up, but fighting off the depression on such a regular basis, the home is not in the condition I would like to see it.  I am hoping that with the strain being lifted my spirits and mood will also lift and the procrastination that has become such a part of me will depart.  I have so many things I would like to do, I look forward to the new year and the new possibilities it holds.  The new chances to make things better and to do better.  Thats all for now.

Blessings to you all in the New Year!