My son went on his first mission trip 2 weeks ago and I have been a blubbering baby! We have homeschooled for his entire life. He is 17 and I have two other sons at home to keep me company; but whenever he calls or I see him or have to say good-by...I am a cry baby! Thankfully, he is still in our state with a touring mission choir and I have been able to see him but I wonder if other homeschool moms have gone through this?  I mean, maybe because I never put him on the school bus when he was younger...it might be harder to do as they get older. I keep thinking to myself "Get a grip woman!" Really, I don't know how moms of soldiers make it...

Anyway, I just wondered if other homeschool moms have felt this almost mourning feeling?  I know it will only get harder in the future to deal with my sons growing up and embarking on their own lives.  I can't even try scrapbooking as a hobby because I know that looking at baby pictures makes me sad. Do you know what I miss?? Naptime snuggly sleepy heads with tiny toes and baby feet. (All my sons have feet bigger than mine by now!) I miss chocolate milk moustaches...they are now becoming replaced with the real thing. Maybe I am just in a 40's crisis time of my life? Maybe I need to corner my husband and convince him that I need another baby around here?  Maybe not... I am just thankful that I still have my three boys and I still need to live in this moment and trust in God to take care of these feelings when I commit my way to Him. I know I can trust in Him to bring to completion the work he has started in all our lives. Just keep me in prayer ya'all. I'm gonna go get another kleenex.