Just a short entry here.  This has been a hard weekend for us.  We felt numb when we left Dr. Mirable's office.  As he and I were talking this past Saturday, I was finally able to put into words what it was feeling like. 

I see Bill and I holding hands and standing in a room. 

There are no windows, no light and no sound.

We have no point of reference in which way to go.

I know in my "mind" that the Lord is there and His presence isn't based on a feeling.

But my "heart" does not feel His presence.

We had a powerful time of prayer when our church family prayed for us yesterday after the invitation.  It was one of the few times I've allowed myself to really feel the reality of what's to happen.  I couldn't really sing any of the songs and the message was on Jesus resurrecting Lazarus.  Not exactly what I wanted to hear, but probably needed to hear. 

We are still trying to decide on an early delivery v. schedule delivery and still we have no peace about either answer.  We are getting some pieces put together and gathering information today and tomorrow and hopefully will know by Wednesday, if not sooner.  I admit that in some ways I wish for circumstances to make the answer for me.  We'll see.