NOTE: THIS WAS TYPED ON 08/14/09

I am typing this blog from a local hospital here in town.  I started feeling twinges in my left shoulder and around the left rib cage last Monday evening and attributed it to washing my hair in the kitchen and probably slept on my left side wrong to make matters worse.  By Tuesday, the pain was significantly sharper, acute and debilitating.  I have a pretty high threshold when it comes to pain tolerance, but this was worse than anything I have ever experienced.  What made matters worse was that I was only getting about 4-5 hours sleep total and not all at once.  Thursday, yesterday, I called Dr. E and told her the symptoms and she suggested taking a muscle relaxer for about 24 hours and alternate hot/cold packs.  I woke up this morning and it was not any better.  So Bill and I went to an urgent care clinic that had x-ray equipment and took some pictures of my left shoulder and ribcage area.  The possibilities were not good.  I had either pneumonia or blood clots in my lungs.  Yes, blood clots.  I’ll be honest, that made me scared.  We were instructed to go to a hospital ER and that I would most likely be admitted. 

The drive home was extremely quiet.  We went ahead and packed for a couple of days for me; not sure why we didn’t pack for Bill either, but I guess we were still processing the possible causes of this pain and weren’t thinking straight.  Once we were in the ER they did more blood draws and ordered a CAT scan.  The results, blood clots in my left lung.  So I was admitted and they did an ultrasound on my legs to see if they were the location where the clots originated.  But the best part was that as soon as they had me in the ER exam room, they immediately gave me pain relief medicines and muscle relaxers.  It was amazing how quickly it worked and hadn’t felt that good in days. 

Needless to say the Memorial service we had planned for Faith on August 15, 2009 was postponed.  Most likely it will be next Saturday, August 22, 2009.  This will depend on when they discharge me.

This new turn of events almost makes you want to laugh or cry.  Yesterday when I was in such pain that it brought me to tears I looked up and asked God, “Haven’t I suffered enough?  Hasn’t Bill suffered enough?  Why are you allowing this to happen?”  Someday we may find out, whether on this side or the other side of heaven. 

Please pray for total healing for me, strength for Bill as he has felt so helpless watching me be in such agony and there wasn’t a thing he could do, and for Peggy, Bill’s Mom as she is watching Hope and Nate at the house.  We also need prayer for helpers to help with Hope and Nate in the next couple of weeks.

We appreciate your continued prayers and lifting us up to the Father’s throne.

May we continue to Fix Our Eyes On Our Comfort, Shelter and Healer.