Dec. 15, 2008
Homeschooling.....Anyway.....
|
I didn't have anything to blog about today so I decided to browse a few blogs on here to see if I could find some inspiration. I wasn't prepared for what I found, but I am so thankful I did. I stumbled across Thoughts on Homeschooling Anyway and after reading a few posts and her "about me" I found myself crying and thanking God for pointing me to something I needed to read. I only wished I had found this blog 3 years ago. You see, 3 years ago I lost my baby Maggie, my 9th blessing, and 4th to go home to Jesus before her time. She lived only 2 hours. Homeschooling Anyway is the website linked to the blog and lead me to a family who had similar circumstances. Losing a child....and homeschooling anyway. Life went on even after Maggie was gone. I don't know how I did it, but after reading the grief article on Homeschooling Anyway, I found myself nodding and crying once again (the tears will always come no matter how hard I try to hold them back) because she was speaking my words....word for word! I think this is another reason Christmas has been so hard for me these past few years. In 2005 I was supposed to have a new baby girl to cuddle. Alas, she was born too early and with too many problems. You can read Maggie's Story (you'll have to scroll down to the Dec. 27th, 2005 entry), As a result I find myself very melancholy at this time of the year and it's hard to appear eager and pleasant for the rest of the family. I know this will pass, that time will make the wounds less raw. I'm grateful for websites like this one I found today. To be able to read that others have walked the same road and have survived. We are survivors in our family. I was just reading my 2007 Christmas Letter and smiling as I remembered how life did go on and how blessed I am to have the family I have. God has indeed richly blessed us. |
Comments
Dec. 16, 2008 - Hey there!
|
|
|
|
|
Posted by