Oct. 16, 2006 - We're back!!
We are finally back from our trip. We got back early Saturday afternoon but we've been in rush mode to get everything put back together. My dh had to leave for Phoenix yesterday. We tried to get it all back together before he left but it just didn't happen. I am playing catch up now.
My dh is much better as telling stories so if anyone is interested in our trip, I'll link you to his blog, Underdog, and you can read about it. We had fun and are really hoping God will answer prayers to move us up there.
Things are about to get very busy for our family. Ally has a birthday next week but we are celebrating this weekend. The following weekend is so close to Halloween that we will start our hybernation until it's over. I hate Halloween. I did even as a child. It always seems so creepy. After I became a Christian I began to sense a spiritual heaviness as the date for Halloween grew closer and closer. October is a hard month for me because it's truly a time when I go through lots of spiritual attack. The only redeeming quality for October is that my Miss Ally was born. :) (Oh, and my brother has a birthday this month but he's just my brother. LOL!!)
November is very busy with family pictures, Christmas shopping (we try to finish before Thanksgiving), a women's conference for me, Thanksgiving, and a trip to visit my grandparents to be drilled by extended family about homeschooling and WHY I am having more children. Gee, I am really looking forward to that.
I will start my 3rd trimester this coming weekend (well, that also depends on what website you do the due ate calculator on - LOL!!!). I am already feeling tired. But I think it's anemia. My body is not doing the same thing it's done in the past with anemia so I am confused. I started my chlorophyll this morning so I'll know in the morning if it's anemia. It's the right time. It's could also be other stuff.
I am also a major emotional rollcoaster. My children are downstairs playing with the CD and listening to music while I am hiding on the computer. My energy level is really low and I just kind oof feel meloncholy and depressed. Dh and I have hit a bump in the road regarding our marriage. We totally see God working but this is a hard one. I believe God is working in my heart to do somethings that I am soooooo not comfortable doing. But this is GOD asking me. How can I say no? So I am really wrestling right now. My sin nature doesn't want to give over to this one. But I wearing down in the fight. I just don't think I can continue to fight with God over this. But I am fearful. I guess that is what I fighting most. I want to completely trust God but there is fear. Fear is my favorite sin and He knows it. It's just another part of my life He's having to weed the fear out so I can grow.
I can't wait for my dh to be home. Our marriage is strong but it's in a transition period. I feel very insecure without him here to just reassure me that everything is alright. Sometimes he just comes up behind me and hugs me. It always tells me he's still here with me no matter what rough spot we hit. I spent nearly a week and a half with him. You'd think I would be tired of him. I don't think I can ever get tired of him. I am too much in love with him. My parents went through lots of problems at this stage in their marriage. They almost seperated. I fully expected to be there myself. But we're not. We're struggling with some things but there is a fight within both our hearts not to lose the other one. There is just a part of me that wishes God would move us through this quickly (did I mention that impatience is also a favorite sin?) But I suspect that isn't going to happen. He's got too much to do between us. It will be interesting to see what comes out of this rough spot. I love him so much. And I really miss him right now. (I think I shall put the kids down for a nap and go cry for a while.)
One last thought. I paid my brother to house sit for us. He decided to take it upon himself to spoil my cat. He was literally giving her crunchies every hour. Now she feels she's entitled to be fed that much. And when she's not she will mark things or simply pee on the floor. I am very tempted this afternoon to drop her off on the nearest highway and leave her. Oh, and he let my dogs CHEW on my collectable Boyd's Bears. He didn't know they were off limits. THEY WERE SITTING ON A TABLE AND HAD THEIR TAGS STILL ON THEM. They are ruined now. I was really appreciative of him housesitting but I am also really miffed over this. I feel stuck between a rock and hard place. He's not the most responsible person in the world but I thought he was smarter than this. URGH!!! I think I just need to vent about this one.
I am hungry and need to go eat. I made some yummy stew when we got home and I am thoroughly enjoying it. I love winter meals. :)
God Bless
Comments
Oct. 16, 2006 - Welcome Back!
Posted by MyLittleWomen
So glad you are back safe, Karen! I hope that things will work out for you to move there.
I'm sorry you and your husband are going through a rough spot. It is always hard to trust the Lord...but He will pull you two through.
Blessings,
Sommer
Oct. 16, 2006 - Untitled Comment
Posted by babymakers
I am with you about Halloween. It is a stupid holiday anyhow. I mean how dumb is it to fill your children with candy and dress them up so they are wicked looking?
Oct. 16, 2006 - Did you know
Posted by 5atkins
that Martin Luther nailed his thesis to the door of the church on 10/31 which officially launched the beginning of the reformation? That is the only good thing about that date for me. Of course the day itself will be a true blessing from God which we can cherish from him! I will cherish it inside my darkened house as I blog or talk with my dh, so no one will come by with their candy buckets! :)
I will be praying for you during this time. God knows all you need so I am asking Him to give it to you! :)
Your dh is a trip! I love how he calls you Mrs. Underdog and the kids Pups! :) My husband's nickname in Bible college was Gravy (because his northern friends had never had homemade white gravy) so I became Mrs. Gravy. They never gave our kids a nickname though. Maybe they could be Lumps? :)
I like Underdog's summary of your trip! Especially his sweet comments about you! It is wonderful to be loved! And God loves us even more than the wonderful dh He gave us! He is good! In Him, Eva
Oct. 17, 2006 - Untitled Comment
Posted by BundleOfBlessings
I'm glad you are home safe. I think you should drop the cat off at your brother's house. ;0) Praying for you in this time. Keep your chin up.
Blessings~
