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9:29 PM, Feb. 14, 2009 .. 1 comments .. Link
Today I am feeling deeply discouraged.  I feel that I am in a mess.  At the same time though I feel as though there is a battle being fought over me.  I am deeply convicted over some of my failures, but don't know if I have the strength to change.

Then I remember that I do NOT have the strength to change, Christ does, and it is he who strengthens me.

It is a strange feeling.  At the same time that I feel remorse over wasted time and neglected responsibilities, I feel great hope for the future.  If I trust and obey God then he will be with me, and His way is greater than anything I could forge for myself.

I am behind... oh so behind!  Yet, I do far more work every day now than when I was first married!  I have so much more on my plate.  And it's so much harder to laugh and excuse myself for my laziness :)

I find it is hard to spend the time with the Lord that I must when I am so busy!  When I get up I have to tube-feed Jacob, feed the older three kids, change the younger three kids' nappies (Savvy is day trained but not night trained) and then the day begins.

One of the things I am convicted of is my need to awaken early to have that time with God then... but right now Savannah is staying awake until 10pm at night - how can I get up early when I am already too tired to cope with the day?  I must pray that the Lord will find a way for me.

This post doesn't really have much of a point to it.  There is no message to it.  I am struggling, and I desire to change.  I know that God can and will strengthen me.  I want to record this day, these thoughts today - and this is my only diary.  I'm not used to having private thoughts!

God is good, all the time.  All the time - GOD IS GOOD!

Goodnight.
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11:37 PM, Feb. 14, 2009 .. Posted by 2boysmom
There are many times that I feel the same way. Those are usually the times that I need to just rest in God's arms. He knows what season of life you're in and He understands the work you have. There are seasons of life where we have to learn to communicate with God all throughout our day, rather than just a certain "quiet time." When you're laying with the kids during bedtime, or rocking, or any other quiet time with them, turn that into a time with the Lord. As one mom shared with me once, turn some time on the couch into your Bible time, while reading aloud to the kids. It's not the ultimate - intimate time with God, but for this season of life - it is good.

Also, remember what Joyce Meyer says in her book "Battlefield of the Mind": the first place satan attacks us is in our minds. Look up all the scriptures about "sound mind" and pray them over and over when you feel attacked (guilt, shame, etc.). Satan loves to mess with our minds, but God wants us to have a sound mind. It is a battle but you have God on your side!

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