Saturday, March 21, 2009 - So... am I really crazy?
Maybe it's because spring is coming. Maybe it's because I've discovered I can be the opposite of shy. Maybe it's the confidence from not just that but the way this story I'm working on seems to be coming together. Maybe it's all of the above.
Would you think I was crazy if I said I was going to try to put on a play? I feel a little crazy. Yes, I've been feeling a little wild, just a tiny bit not-quite-tame. That could spring coming. But it makes me wonder if I really am a little crazy, a little wild. What makes me think this most is that I feel like it would be okay if I was.
Hey, I can walk up to people and talk to them! Even sometimes have things not go my way or have plans change mid-step and actually deal with it instead of getting upset. I can survive long pauses and still come up with something to say. I can deal with the stress of someone pouring out their problems to me, because I love them.
So, what it this then? Is this growing up? Goodness! If they'd told me it was like this, full of confidence and life, I might have signed up sooner, haha.
So now. Putting on a play. Script, people, location, money, time. Time, no problem. :) The rest I'll deal with one at a time, and then we'll see. I've wanted to be in a play. We'll see. Lord willing, this will work.
My sister and I we were talking on the phone recently about something completely unrelated. It was then that she said I sounded completely psycho. Allow me to respond with a disturbing, too-wide grin. Psycho? Dunno. Crazy? Always! And you should know. :)
