Friday, August 7, 2009 - Providence
So. Providence. In my last blog post I concentrated on our trip, and how good it was. I barely touched on the providential aspects at all. I mean, suddenly after this trip I'm looking back at the past year, and more, and thinking, "Oh, THAT'S why!" (Despite all the things I'm sure I can't remember.) It's a privilege everyone wants, but rarely gets. So I'll try to savor it, and wait patiently for the next piece of the puzzle. Maybe it will be the one I half-expect, or maybe it will open up a new section of the puzzle I never dreamed was there.
Patience is hard. Before all this obvious providence was thrown in my face (the only way I'll ever notice it, quite frankly), I was frustrated with the way things were. I still get frustrated a lot. But I can feel change in my blood. If the feeling is right, change is coming.
O Lord, help me keep this feeling of wonder and readiness. Help me to be properly mobile.
So, whether you're frustrated or excited, it's always hard to wait. Reminds me of a poem I wrote once, about how we're always running toward something. The object isn't always good, but we're always running. It's in our nature, I guess.
Anyway, this started out as a post to tell you about the providential things that have been going on, but it took on a life of its own. So that will have to be a subject for another time. Maybe in another week or so we'll know what's going on... Insofar as we can know. Until then, I really hope I can expend all this nervous energy on something productive.
People I saw on the trip? I miss you. People I didn't get to see at church last Sunday: I miss you. See you soon.
