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Wow it has been two months since I wrote that last blog. I feel much better about things and have been able to put it in perspective. Thanks to some good advise I wrote that on my 40th birthday. I was more excited to celebrate having met the love of my life on the 3rd of June 1986 rather than remembering that I am 20 years older now lol. I cannot believe how fast it has all gone especially with children. A friend of mine asked me what I wanted to be doing in ten years and that really stumped me. I know I have spoken about what I want to do after homeschooling but it made it glaringly obvious that I have no goals for the near future for myself. Of course there are the goals for the children... August 26 2006 OK I wrote this before and never posted it!!! Ahh where does the time go. I really want to write how I was really down then and now I am happier and feel like I had to get over that to get on. I went down because I realised I didn't have goals for my hubby and I and didn't know where to start. I have no idea.... I just needed to seek guidance and realise that I maybe not able to do everything now cause the kids are still young but I can lay a foundation for the next ten years that can make a better adjustment for me when the kids are done schooling at home. A friend of mine who has been homeschooling for a longtime was looking back and saying that maybe she had been way to idealistic about the whole thing and that maybe it had'nt worked out as she had wanted. That floored me.... I have some other friends who have homeschooled for about 7 years with a group of friends and there was some changes in the group and one by one they have all gone back to school.. They did it so easily and even look back and think maybe they should have never done it... They stopped homeschooling because the others were not any more. I was thinking how could they do that just becuase the others weren't ..Wouldn't you look for others who were doing it??? If you were that commited .. That and a piece by Reb Bradley called Solving the Crisis in Homeschooling made me think twice. It made me take a step back and examine why I am doing this. The answer came back that I want to still do this and just need to examine it closely and often so that I won't look back and regret it. I suppose you do that in life anyway so you can't regret things. Also of course by laying it before God and seeking his guidance. I was starting to get the mid year jitters about how I was behind and all that but I know from last years experience there are things I can do to alleviate that and come out ok.. Thanks again to more experienced peoplewho gave me advise. Well finally I guess I better go but I am happy to write a happy thoughtful blog this time. It is all like a cirlce working your way around or even more like a tide coming in and out... |
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