Posted in God Speaks

The car has been officially totaled.

It is tough when G-d has you take a look at your leavening.  You see, I didn't think that this accident was my fault nor did I even think I had any serious faults, not just with the car wreck but the condition of my school, my house, my children, my everything -- of course in G-d's loving grace He is showing me the truth of my sin.  It seems to be part of the process of Passover cleaning that fits the season so perfectly.  I believe the restitution will come with time not just in my home but also in my heart. 

I'm getting there and that was what G-d spoke to me at Good Friday services that, “I am forgiven”; so completely forgiven and so undeserving of His forgiveness but all the same He forgives.  To know that G-d loves me sooooo much that Yeshua died for my sins: the sins that I seem to keep repeating, that is what makes it so hard to forgive myself.  But my dh never thought I was to blame for any of it - the car, the kids the house, my Homeschool, so I am trying hard not to blame myself and to accept His forgiveness too; His TOTAL forgiveness. 

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