To my dear faithful readers. I just want to express to how special you all are to me. I know that although I may not be the most gifted writer you still look with anticipation to my next blog entry. Today I want to start off with a clip of a blog I wrote just after Easter.

I wish I could put into words just how breath taking the view from the Cross is. We sang praises to God celebrating the resurrection of Jesus with views that look painted they were so perfect. I keep thinking, “God living here is just like a dream, I love it.” There is this part of me that wants to live here forever. Each morning a wake up and think “ God thank you for bringing us here.” So what has been going over in my mind lately is “What if God doesn’t have you come back again?” I keep thinking of others things we could do here just to fulfill my selfish desire to be here. We are praying God gives us students for next year but what if he doesn’t? What if we are not asked back by the college, will I be content where God places us even if it is not here? Antigua Guatemala has tons of missionary’s and many of them are here doing good works and serving the people of Guatemala but it almost seems they too love living here and sort of find things to do just so they can live here. What does God want of me? I want to be where God wants to be above all my selfish desires. Please don’t get me wrong, I love living in Maine, I liked living in Oregon, Hawaii and Fiji. Every place God has taken me I have been content and happy. The feeling I have here is that I love it so much it feels too good to be true that God actually placed us here for 6 months to serve Him and part of me wants to make it longer. I would never call what we do here work since it is what my heart desires to do and that is discipleship. This morning I was reading my bible in Luke. First I read the Lords prayer and the phrase. “Your kingdom come, your will be done.” I thought “What is God will to be done for us?” Then I read further and it says, “Ask and it will be given you, ……………. For he who asks receives.” I want to ask God according to His will. I guess I have preached long enough. I normally don’t write this kind of stuff but God is stirring me to think about these things.

So I come to the next part of our journey to share with you. Dan and I sat down with Bob and Shirley this week. Bob and Shirley have decided to close the Fuego 5 month college program for various reasons so our work with them will be finished next week. We have complete peace with this. This was our answer we were looking for. Although we have loved working with Bob and Shirley there have been times were we have felt we have a different philosophy on ministry and for the long term I do not think it was a good fit. I must say God has been preparing me for this and as much as I wanted more then anything to come back to Guatemala God has been showing it would not be with Fuego. There are many reason they are choosing not to run the program again but please know they have prayed about it and feel God is leading them to pursue other ministries. Bob really was such an encouragement to us with his kind words on our job with them and so forth. He encouraged us in our love for Guatemala to look at some other ministries here about joining them. Dan and I are just praying right now and seeking God in this. We ask you to pray for us as well that God will give us peace and guidance ad a family. Our hearts love Guatemala and we would love to come back here more long term but like I wrote at Easter,  I want to be where God wants to be above all my selfish desires. So Dan and I are just seeking the Lord as to what he has next for our family. We both love Guatemala and would love to come back here and serve. I am feeling such peace from God. I feel he has showed us we will be coming back to Guatemala at some point but when, where, how and how long who knows. It brings back memories of 10 years ago when I was in Hawaii and dreading saying goodbye to Dan since I didn’t know when I would see him again. When the time actually came to say goodbye God filled me with such peace. I just felt God saying to me “I have showed you Dan is the man you will marry just trust me to bring it to pass.” I had this sense that I was going to trust God it didn’t matter if it was 10 years God had my best in mind. So now as we near the end of our commitment here I am filled with so much thankfulness that God has given us this special time here. He will bring us back we just don’t know the details. If it is 3 months, or 10 years we are at peace with that.

Today Dan left for the weekend. I am home with the kids for now. We have plans to spend the day with Eby. I would spend all day everyday with her if I could. She has been such a great friend. Tomorrow we say goodbye to our church here. Next week is full of closing the program with our students, Goodbyes and so forth. So much more I could write but no time.