If I ever have felt like this (Calgon, take me away), today is the day! What an awful day!! I really want to live by "This is the day the Lord has made, we will rejoice and be glad in it"!!! But, oh my gosh!!!!
Ok, so first, I dont feel good. Ive done soemthing to my back and it not only is shooting pains across my back, but also down my leg. Also, at the base of my neck going about half way up the back of my head, it hurts. i dont know why, it just relly hurts. its kinda a sore feeling. not like a headache, but... i dont know, cant realy describe it. Plus, Im tired. Couldnt sleep well last night because of my back. (and the fact that i had another dream that i saw my brother. this time, i just cried and hugged him and told him how much i loved him. he told me he knew. that was worth not getting sleep!!) So anyways, theres me.
Then, theres the kids. 10, 9, and 7 years olds who have literally acted like babies all day. The day started off with just my daughter. 10 years old. Beautiful young thing. Somewhere in growing up, shes lost all her happiness and filled it with bitterness. I dont know what happened. But, shes always upset that I need to work with the twins more, because she understands on her own and can just "go with it" for her school work, but her younger brothers need me more. But, this am, she needed me, and the tripletts did just fine on their own. so I got a good hour to work with JUST HER. But, the whole time, she WHINED and didnt even try. ARGH!!! I cant handle whining!!!!! Add to the fact that she was needing help with math, my least favorite subject. the hardest for me to understand. fractions, at that, which i really dont get. so here i am trying to help her, struggling to do so, and getting nothing but whining from her. UGH!!!
So she finally gets it and moves on. So, I move on and go to help the tripletts. These boys have done so wonderful so far! They've finished almost all of their work on their own while im working with their sister! Wonderful!! But now, the little monster head start to show. The whining starts from them! "I dont get it!" "This is too hard!" "Why do I have to do this?" "Can we be done?" And guess what subject?? Yep, MATH!!! Come on!!
So, Im already frustrated. I already dont feel good. I feel like Ive been fighting a war for about 50 years all in one day. So thats it. I give up. Pack up your stuff kiddos, were going home (We dont do school at home, we do it at my moms house). Whatever school work isnt done, bring it home, its homework. So, we get home, I decide to be nice (and i need a break, too!!) and say, ok, were starting school at a certain time, do your chores, the rest of the time is free time. The church office had called and left me a message so I call them back. The WHOLE TIME im on the phone, the kids are fighting and screaming! yeah, their supposed to be doing chores!!! So, I have to ask the secetary to hold on, while i remind them of their rudeness. One, ends up sitting in the time out chair. Then they go back to doing chores. The time out chair just so happens to be opposite the basement door. My son, whose in time out, is mad that hes there, kicks the basement door, which happens to have his brother coming thru (he didnt see him, at least ill give him that) and ends up slamming to door with his brothers head in between.
Yes, folks, my house is a picture for Nanny 911 today. Where did i go so wrong?
So, now Im exhausted. honestly, Im ready for bed! Shouldnt it be 10 already?!!? no, its not even 3:00 in the afternoon yet. And what do I get to look forward to tonight? Why, of course, a baseball game! Yep, its 55 degrees, possiblity of rain, and tonight is out last official night of fall baseball. I tell my kids to always look at the verse that comes up on Switched on Schoolhouse before starting anything. Guess what the verse is. "The Lord is my strength". Yes. He is. I need it desperately!! Come quickly Lord!!
If your reading this, Id love to hear (read lol) encouraging comments. or just a hug :) |
