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Watkins Way
Apr. 3, 2008
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This week was a hard one! The girls didn't want to do any work...they just wanted to play. I know the weather has been nicer and we have been getting out more but for some reason we are at the burnout level. When they whine, then I don't want to do anything either. We are on track to get a few classes done about 2 weeks early. Not like we couldn't take a little time off but we already have a week long trip planned and I don't want to have to keep working into the summer if we can help it. Am I being a 'slave driver'?
Maybe having a few more play dates and more relax time would be good. They have been trying to guilt me by saying the 'you don't love me' or 'you love her more' lines. I guess maybe they each need more one-on-one time away from the school work. Any thoughts/idea would help. I'm starting to feel that push to just public school T next year. I'm sure it will 'blow over'.
'night
J |
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Mar. 30, 2008
J
So it's been a LONG while. I was actually locked out for a time. Something with our firewall. Anyway, things have been very busy. The GS cookies are almost over. We aren't going to make that much really. It's a pain when you have to pay for all the cookies even if you can't get them all sold. Once a case is open you can't take it back to the council. It's been a bit of a fight and I'm really soured by this. I'm second guessing having DD in GS or being a leader. We'll see what the summer cooling off brings for next year.
In other news, I'm really excited that another MNVA mom has e-mailed me. We have been going back and forth by e-mail for a week or so. I do hope we can meet in person soon. I think our DD's might really like getting together with someone in the same situation. I really do need to find a support group soon. I am feeling the burn out. Please spring come soon!!
I'm not 100% sure we're homeschooling again next year. I keep looking at this year and wondering if it was really that good. Some days I just feel like I'm going through the motions and wonder if I'm really doing any good. I have noticed a few things that let me know DD is retaining some of the information. I guess I'm sort of on the fence yet. Our online school is asking for registrations already.
Off to prep for tomorrow. I was working on a chore chart for the girls tonight-not quite finished. They seem excited about it though. Something a little more hands on for them...and maybe a little more work for me-checking up on them.
Good night
~J |
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Feb. 5, 2008
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OK, so I took on the leader spot for my DD's Girl Scouts. Who knew the cookie sales could be so stressing? I've bought boxes before but never thought about what the leader and girls go through. All the forms, incentives, patches, extra boxes to worry about. I've only gotten through the initial order stage. Now our unit checks the order and submits. Then the cookies come and we get them out and pick up the money. Then you get into the fun of depositing the money into the correct account-the troop or the council's? Then there's the cookie credits to use. WOW! And I only have 5 girls. There are troops with 20 or so girls. I hope they have 2 cookie managers.
Enough of a rant...school has been going pretty well. We are in units that T finds pretty easy. So no melt downs of frustration. A has not been wanting to do any sort of sit down stuff. I haven't been pushing, but when she asks to turn on the TV instead of play-I have a problem. She is the one that likes to stay in more than go out...but then it has been cold and she's more sensitive. She's more in tune with her body. She's the one that will say she's hungry and get crabby when she is. She's the one that will say her toes are cold. T just sort of gets too busy to notice. Funny how the girls have so many things different and yet (for the most part) get along so well. They really can play very nicely together for long periods of time.
Anyway, I'm off to bed. I've been reading a really cool book. 'The secret life of Betty Miller' I thought it was sort of oddly written at first, but I've gotten into it. I'm over 1/2 why through and can't way to see what happens.
~J |
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Jan. 30, 2008
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So my baby is 4 now. It's hard to believe it went so fast! I have noticed a big change in her this year. She grew a lot, but she just has that 'big' kid look. I noticed it with T when she turned 4/5. So I said yesterday all the things we did. Plus later that night she got to open presents from mom and dad. She is really into Tomas the train so I got her 2 track sets and some train. Dad got her a mini piano-one that makes a lot of annoying sounds. The weather was about the same as the day she was born...COLD! We had blizzard alerts out but our town didn't get hit by much. I guess we could have stayed at the MOA for a while longer. Tomorrow we will get her 4 yr pictures done. I noticed I'm a lot more lax with the 2nd child. I was always on the ball with pictures, thank yous, etc. But not so with A. It's more like 'oh yeah, better get that done'. Just like the Dr appointments and the dentist. Whenever I can get to it now. Am I really that much more busy?
~J |
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Jan. 29, 2008
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Today is A's birthday. She is now 4 years old. We already went to the MOA to ride rides. While we were there, a nice lady gave us free mystery tickets. So the girls got 3 more rides. So nice! What luck on A's birthday. The weather wasn't looking so good so we ate lunch with Dad on our way home. We then went to the library and realized that we had Dad's keys. So we had to run back up to his work. We still got time to watch A's choice in movie. Now I'm supposed to get done so she can play at Strawberry Shortcake dot com. So much for letting me reflect on the last 4 years :-). Maybe I'll get a chance later...early bedtime?
~J |
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Jan. 23, 2008
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I noticed something the other day. See my A got strep this year...our first case ever in our home. So, usually being lax on things had to repeat to the girls 'don't kiss each other and don't share cups or chap stick or...' I didn't think much off it really but then a few days into it my T said she couldn't wait until A was done with being sick so we could kiss again. Sort of an odd feeling. I didn't realize how much we kiss...we're a peck on the lips household. It just never really hit me how much we do and how much the girls like it. It brought back the time when T was about 3 and in a Early Childhood Education Class. She had said 'I love you' to the doll there. The teacher actually said something to me like she can tell it's something T has heard a lot. It hit me...doesn't everyone say that? I guess not if it's something that struck her. It's just something we do here...the love is very freely given. If I'm a bad mother in other ways, at least I can know that we are loved here.
~J |
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Jan. 8, 2008
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Well I can't say I'm off to a good start. I haven't been keeping up on my usual chores or getting very far with the D-cluttering. I wish there was such a thing as a 'usual' day, but around here it seems something always coming up or we start our day late or DD wants to mix her subject schedule around (I don't want it to get boring for her so I let her pick the subject we do in what time slot). I need to pick myself up and brainstorm a new way to schedule or I have to let something go until I can get a little headway with the clutter. There are a few positives...I have been keeping up with the Create in me a Clean Heart devotional (CCH). I've also been praying for my husband daily (an idea I got from someone's blob). I've also been reading me Bible daily again and memorizing the verses for the CCH devotional. So even if my house is still suffering, my heart and time with God aren't. I will pray that God gives me more effective ways to use my time, to keep interruptions to a minimum, and keep me focused on the goal-working on the journey.
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Dec. 22, 2007
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| I woke up this morning thinking of how stressed T gets over assessments. Thing is, I'm sure it's me that has fueled this trait in her. She's always been more perfectionist, but I don't help with my 'hurry up-you're wasting time-stay focued' etc. I'm sure none of those statements helps her. I am glad that I'm in step 2 of changing this. 1-I realized that it happens. 2-I hear myself saying these things. Now step 3 to stop saying these things and change to a more supportive phrase. Part of homeschooling is the flexible schedule. Why am I always in a rush? I wonder if she'd be better in a brick-n-mortar school? One where the teacher isn't hounding her. Does it get easier as the years go by? If anyone reads this and has any tips/tools on how to change my phrasing please let me know. I'm up for any ideas...I fear I'm 'breaking' my daughter. |
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Dec. 21, 2007
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| I don't read a lot of blogs here on a regular bases...hence I don't have friends listed. But Dandelionseeds is a great one! If you'd ever come to my home I usually try to keep you outside. I suffer from pack-rat syndrome. So I've printed off Amy's Clean Heart book. I plan to make it work this year. It's something that looks at more then the mess in your home. It looks at the mess in the heart. I have been seeking God for a while and I hope that this will bring me closer and I can finally be OK with others coming into my home. I think my mood would be better and I would treat my family better. You just don't realize how much the clutter, mess, and dirt really can bring you down and make you grumpy-or make you want to stay away from your house. Maybe that's why I keep the girls in some many activities? Anyway, wish me luck and I'll probably talk about it here off and on. Please pray that I can finally stick with something. |
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Dec. 11, 2007
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| Wow...does anyone else feel the holidays? I don't mean that warm, happy, kind feeling. I mean the one with the stress and the wonder and craziness? That's what I am feeling. I am working on the last minute gift that I wanted to make everyone, the little things for all the teachers (dance, choir, Sunday School...), the little gifts for my Brownie Troop, the gifts for family, the money we over spent, the cleaning for house guests...get it? I am probably sweating more than I need to. But I'm one of those that let it get to me. Why am I even here? I should be working on other things...isn't that what we usually say/feel? What a rant for a posting...may God hear me and give me a better, relaxed, more giving heart. |
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Dec. 9, 2007
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Hi...I am just not very good at making time for things like blogging and journal writing. I get caught up in all the busyness of life I guess. I need to get more organized this coming year. As well as set more goals and keep to the plan. I know we over spent again this year on Christmas for family. I had a budget but then I didn't write everything down and here I am looking over the amounts and wondering how this happened. It sort of puts a downer on the Christmas mood. I may take a few things back yet. I keep wanting the girls to be less materialistic and yet here I am getting more things. I want them to be content with what we have and yet here I am angry with the state of our cluttered mess. I see that a few changes need to be made in me before I can train the girls in any other way. Please pray that I find the strength to keep the plan this coming year.
Other thoughts...I was typing the yearly newsletter that I send to family we see only 1-2 times a year and reflecting on all that happened this year. Very busy and lots of changes. I feel we have faired well. We still healthy, pretty happy, and looking to the future. I think I better take those extra things back now... :-) |
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Oct. 23, 2007
one of those days
I knew when I signed up for schooling at home it wasn't always going to be easy. So today was one of those days. I guess I was on too good of a run-I was due a 'bad' day. T couldn't focus and A was always getting into the way-she just wouldn't stick with one thing and was always interrupting. So later in the school day T doesn't pass the usual assessment (it's like a quiz or recap of the days learning for that subject). She had a melt down. First it was take if over right now and I wanted to review the lesson a little-cover what she missed. Then she wouldn't calm down so I had her lay on her bed to gain control of herself. But she wasn't giving in-she found the re-test and started to take it-in pen. She missed a few more questions. She said she just wanted to surprise me by getting it done while I was with A. So she cried 'cause she was more wrong. Tomorrow we will re-test. The day has to be better than this one.
I do wonder (if you're reading this please comment your thoughts) what others do when this happens. I really don't know what to do. This is the 3rd time she's melted down 'cause she didn't pass a quiz. I always tell her it's learning and not everything is going to be easy. Also that I don't expect her to be 100 % right every time...no one can be correct on everything all the time. It scares me a little and I wonder if I'm doing something to make her think she always has to pass on the first try. Things have come easy for her so far but I know it's going to get harder. How do I prepare her for that if I can't get her past this? |
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Oct. 18, 2007
rain...and more rain.
Well I know we were needing the rain before...but now I think we have enough. Flash flood warnings off and on for the past few days. The girls and I went downtown yesterday and the river wasn't as high as I thought it would be. I know it was higher a few weeks ago when we got a down pouring.
I've noticed that the girls are also more wound up when they can't get out to run the energy off. So the house has been a bit more crabby. Just putting a down mood on everyone and the school work seems more like work.
We have a wedding to go to this weekend. My side of the family and we haven't seem them since A was a baby...so about 3 years. It should be fun. We get to stay in a hotel - with a pool. The biggest draw for the girls. We'll be staying in the town of my elementary days. Maybe we see some places I used to play and the house I used to live in and maybe even run into a few people I knew. That's if I can still recognize them.
I also have my 10 yr reunion. It's in November and I still haven't decided if I want to go. I suppose I should but it was such a big class that's no 'for sure' that I'll know anyone. I'll have to pray on it. Is it worth it or should I put that behind as the past? Mostly I just feel old I guess.
It's MEA for schools today and tomorrow. We did school today...until lunch. Then I let the girls play outside with the neighbors - until it started raining again. Do others find it hard to keep the kids home to do school while neighbor kids are out playing? I figure we can make up whatever we're missing and they really needed the outside time.
So on to the other projects I have to get done before my class tonight. I hope everyone else is having a good week...maybe some place with sunshine. |
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Oct. 8, 2007
Who knew...
Wow...we're in our 7th week of schooling and who knew it would be fun...for me? It's been great seeing my daughter learning and looking forward to schooling. There have been a few days I've heard the I just want to go back to Greenvale. But it's only been 2-3 times-when she's really frustrated.
I'm also amazed at how much we get done in a day (which is about 3 1/2 hours). We've been getting through 2-3 phonics and language arts lessons as well as 2 math lessons. I think we just haven't gotten to the tough stuff yet.
It's been great for me too! I've been able to get her to eye appointments without scheduling problems and stay in MOPS! We get to go places more too...like walking by the river and take Friday off if we like to. I really love the flexible schedule.
I still have a hard time with my mom-she either doesn't understand or wants to make if difficult. If she wants to take T for a day I just need to know a few days ahead so we can work on an extra lesson and then she can be free on a Thurs to stay the night. But my mom acts like she doesn't know my schedule or how much work we have to do and never asks. It's T that will ask so we can arrange it. Oh well, I guess she'll either get with it or not. I can really see myself doing this again next year...as long as T is still willing.
And I'm surprised how well A has worked into everything. It's still a challenge to fine new and fun things that will keep her busy for a full 45-60 mins. But I get 15-30 mins between T's lessons and that's really started to fall into place. She's not so attention seeking. She's actually started to ask when we can do her lessons/worksheets. I've found that if I can stick pretty close to a set time or rotation she's better at not interrupting or getting into things she shouldn't.
I just wanted to check in and say much praise! I'm glad God set this into my heart. Even on the hard days... |
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Aug. 27, 2007
Wow...it's been a while.
I haven't had much of a desire (and when I did, not much of a chance) to write. Things are going better for DD1...She's wearing her glasses and we've found an in network provider for vision therapy. They can't get her in until Sept 24th-but as least I feel hope. We had her tested by an independent office and they wanted to give 45 sessions at $160 each...weekly. We couldn't afford $7000! So I was feeling a bit discouraged thinking that she wouldn't get the quality care she needs. But after a LOT of phone calls and questions I found a place associated with our Ped. I just hope everything goes well.
I've been working hard on MOPS stuff. Getting the folders ready for the new year (Sept 7th). Also working on cards for parade hand outs, brochures for businesses, and ad's in the paper. Our attendance is down a bit this year. We're used to ebb and flow though. This will be my fourth year in MOPS. I think it's wonderful to get out and talk with other moms, have someone care for you child while you take a little mom time. It's only 2 times a month but the speakers and discussion groups really revive me.
Also working on Girl Scouts. Finally got my new letter ready to send out to the Troop. It's going to be a tight year. We're 1st year Brownies and have very little money for events, supplies, or anything. I hope other mom's are willing to help with Nut sales this fall so we can get a little money into the bank. At least for events once a month and supplies. I'm still really new to this and not 100% sure on how to run everything. I'm sure it'll work out and I'll get better as the year moves on. The other mom's are willing to help out with meeting. I'll bet some have some supplies to led the troop as well. I am not dispairing yet!
Other wise, we did the MN State Fair, Steel County Fair, the family farm, and other outings. Just seems we've been busy! With everything on 2 computers, it's been a lot of switching this and that so I can work on one or the other. I can't wait 'til it slows a bit.
We haven't rec'd our books/materials yet. The Virtual school year is supposed to start Sept 4th. Hard to start when I don't have the materials, can't log on, and no idea what the plan/schedule is. I'm a bit worried about this but I've been reassured that if it's not here by then it's not counted against us. But it would be nice to keep on track so we can end on time in the spring/summer. They were ordered on the 14th so I'd think everything should be set up on line and gathered by now. I really hope it all comes this week so I have a little time to prepare for lessons. I've been trying to plan my DD2 for things, but it seems hard since I'm not sure what DD1 will need/be doing when.
Enough griping...to bed. I hope everyone has things more settled than I do! |
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Jul. 22, 2007
WOW!
We had our niece (3 yr) and nephew (3 mo) over this weekend. I have a new look on what mothers of 4 go through. I'm sure that if they are all your own and you have a routine with them it wouldn't be quite so crazy...but I'm sure there are days like we had for the last 2 days. At least it was a weekend...we don't stick to a 'real' schedule on the weekends.
My brother and SIL had a relaxing time away. I'm glad we could give that to them. It's a big change going from one to 2. I did it 3 years ago. I also got to know more about my niece and nephew. Very stubborn and loud. They both are really. I was OK with them going home. Don't get me wrong-I love them VERY much. But some family are better seen once in a while. They are their mother's kids...she's very bold.
She did say she likes what Hubby and I have. He gets Tues night to do things and I have Thurs night...not all the time but most weeks. It's nice to get that little break. It's a time I use mostly to get some quiet, but I'll visit with friends too.
Teagan has been wearing her glasses more now...less headaches as she gets used to them. We finally have an appointment with an eye therapist-2 weeks from now. Teagan was talking about seeing double so her eyes may need some 'teaching' on how to work together. We'll find out after about 2 hours (with breaks) of tests. I just hope it's correctable or not as bad as I fear.
That's about it for the update. Off to spend a little RR with Hubby. |
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Jul. 8, 2007
Sculpture Gardens
Hubby and I took the girls to the Walker Sculpture Gardens. I thought it was great seeing the big spoon with the cherry. The girls liked that too but soon got too hot and started to complain. Oh well, Hubby and I will have to visit another time without kids so we can look at the art better.
I've been working on Brownie stuff the last 2 nights. A little here and a little there. Maybe I'll be ready by Sept. I at least outlined the badges and events I'd like to work on this year. Now I was going to sit here to work on some forms to keep organized but remembered that our tower is in the shop and Hubby's work has lent us one. So I don't have my normal programs...I'm sure I could use the ones on here but it's unformiliar and would take a while to figure everything out. I'll just wait until tomarrow when I get mine back. |
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Jul. 7, 2007
Just some thoughts
I've been seeing a lot of this 90 day challenge. I like reading the Bible and I hope others do too. But I've been thinking that reading the Bible in such a quick fashion may keep people from really taking in all the meaning and value. I've been working through my Bible for over a year and I'm really only a little over 1/2 way through. I like to really think about what is being said. So I usually get through 3-6 pages a day. I guess if you already really know the Bible it might be OK. But I've never really read completely through the Bible. So I'm taking my time.
It's been really HOT here lately. We've been inside almost all day. I hate it...the weather looks so nice and I want to be out, but when the temp is over 95 degrees I feel it's better to stay in. The girls have been really good actually-playing, watching a movie, reading.
The girls helped some in getting the toy population under control. We filled 2 medium sized boxes-they will go to Good Will in the morning. It's nice to get rid of some clutter. Now I just have to get working on ALL the other stuff. One day at a time. The house didn't get this way over night and it won't get cleaned in a day.
Looks like another movis night. I watched 'Horse Whisper' last night. It was better than I thought it would be. LONG though...I had to break to help put the girls to bed. If you haven't seen it and like a healing type love story it's one to see.
Oh, just one last thought...it's amazing how much educated people in the US seem so spaced out when it comes to all the oppertunities that are out there. I can't say how many people are suprised the our Library has a summer program for kids. Or that they lend out so many different kinds of media...not just books. Some are very up-to-date. I barrowed the moive 'Eragon' last week. I just had to see what the hype was about. I didn't think it was that good really. But I haven't read the book either. Point being, people seem to be in their own little worlds and don't think to look outside.
I have to say that's one of the reasons I love coming here and reading other poeple's blogs. I have learned a lot and have gotten a lot of links and ideas. The people here are very resorceful. Thanks to everyone out there that post links and help and ideas on unit studies, etc. |
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Jun. 25, 2007
Summer visitor
Our neice is here to visit for a few days. Fun for the girls! Shailee is about a month older than Teagan and they have been great friends since they were born. It was so sad when my sister-in-law decided to move to AZ to be closer to John's parents. It meant we wouldn't see Shailee as much. But we've made the effort to get together at least 2 times a year.
So the summer lesson plans are on hold this week. I want them to enjoy their time together. They're playing in the kiddy pool outside right now. It's a sticky day here...only 81 though. I don't mind summer but it sure gets sticky here in MN.
Do a lot of homeschooling families work on things in the summer? I have just been going over stuff for review. Nothing that new and it's for about 1/2 to 1 hour a day-a first grade level workbook from Walmart. I just don't want Teagan to loose anything and I'd like Averan to start getting some basics. I've been suprised by Averan...she has picked up some things very quickly. Maybe it won't be as frustrating as I thought.
Anyway, off to enjoy the girls. Maybe I'll dip a foot into the pool too.
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Jun. 22, 2007
feeling like the bad mom...
I took Teagan in to the eye Dr. today. She has been saying that her one eye is fuzzy. I wasn't too concerned since our Ped. and the public school didn't say anything about it-she'd had 2 vision tests. I thought maybe she needed glasses. I have them and it's common in our family. Well, the Dr told me that her right eye is farsighted just slightly but her left eye is very bad. Basicly she isn't focusing at all in this eye. I guess her right eye has been doing the work for both and her left eye has sort of shut down. The Dr did say that with glasses often times there will be improvment. We just need to get her eye focusing and strengthen the muscles. She'll always need glasses but at least there could be an improvment by about 1/2. I just felt so low...playing the 'if only...' game. If only I had listened to Teagan more, if only I had pushed the Ped or school for more information, if only I had taken my daughter more seriously. I know there isn't anything I can do about it now but I still feel so guilty and like a horrible mom...you know. I should have just known. But there wasn't anything...no squinting, no headaches-the Dr couldn't believe that the eyes worked together. With vision this bad her one eye should be turning inward. So there wasn't any visible signs...but I still feel SO BAD!!
I know this isn't anything life threatening, but prayers would be welcomed. Maybe since she's still young her eyes can out grow a lot of it. She may have to under-go therapy-which insurance probably won't cover. I'd think her depth preception would be horrible...maybe that's why she's never been very gracefull. |
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