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Well, I've reached 30 weeks preggo. WOOHOO Almost there!!
The most common question at this point is "How are you feeling?" My answer has been pretty positive, usually I say "really good" or "great considering my size". Today dh overheard me tell someone that I was feeling good and he laughed and said I was lying.  What? He told her that I was miserable and just not unloading on her. I was so embarassed. Not that he called me out, but by how drastically different our perceptions are. I really do feel good most of the time, I feel blessed ALL of the time.
When we got home I brought it up again and asked him if he really thought I was miserable. He laughed and said, yes. He said, "You groan and moan about your back in the morning, you hold your belly and complain about the pain in the evening, you tell me about how this little one kicks so hard and how old you feel." I was saddened. I realized that all he hears is the complaining. He comes home in the am when, yes, my back is stiff from the night before. Then he goes to sleep for most of the day and wakes at the end of my day when I'm exhausted and in pain. He misses the daytime when I'm up and around and feeling good. He misses the time the kids and I spend giggleing at my mishapen belly and the little one kicking away in there. He's not been to a dr apt, so he misses the tears of joy at each ultrasound and doppler reading.
So, I guess I need to make a better effort to keep my complaining to myself and only share the joyful moments with him. Otherwise, he's likely to put an end to growing our family and that's not what I want. He likes the growing family, but not at the expense of my health and comfort. I see it as a short period of time to sacrifice my personal comfort but, it's much longer in his perspective. Pregnancy brings sacrifice that he makes, but does not enjoy and he doesn't like to see me (or live with me) in pain.
As for the pregnancy itself...
This baby is super active. Not so much shifting position, but kicking and punching and hickupping ALOT!! He/She is also very sensitive to sounds, especially music. It 'dances' during worship at church which is both wonderful and distracting. lol I have lost some weight, so my gain is now at 8 lbs. That's a good thing, considering all the extra fluff I had before I got pg. Dr estimates that baby is gaining well so I'm not worried. Although I did get a short lecture about the dangers of dieting during pregnancy. Yeah, whatever. I'm so NOT dieting. I'm just a busy HS mom with 4 other littles to care for and not alot of time to munch. My abs are starting to split a little below my belly button. That's kinda painful but also expected because of my hernia. It only gets bad if I'm on my feel for an extended period of time.
I am loving my OB and will be sad when I have to transfer next month. At my last visit I asked him how long he'd keep me and his reply was, "I'll see you as long as you like. Heck, I'll deliver you if you want. We'd just have to go in and refuse surgery, and you are the perfect candidate for another VBAC." If only he'd deliver me at the hospital that we want to use. Sadly, he doesn't have privledges there. So, I'll be transfering to another OB next month who can deliver me at said hospital. Daddy is insistant that we use the out of area hospital so that we don't see "people" that he knows while we are there. Besides, the facility is really nice and has a better NICU if anything should go wrong.
Here's a pic of me and my big 30 week belly:
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