As the school year draws to a close my children start asking about "summer vacation" and I begin to question how the year has gone. Our summers are very much the same, and very much like the rest of the year really. We go to library shows more often and the boys are thrilled to have 1/2 days...but the 1/2 days usually have the same workload as a normal day in the core subjects. We do change up some of our flexible subjects, we will be doing reading related to our science study for example. Am I better at sneaking learning in during the summer? Do I have a better support system during the summer? I'm not sure what the difference is. The boys still HATE to write but they get it done much more quickly during the summer. Incentive maybe?
As I am going over all these thoughts another minor storm has hit. Branches that were damaged by the ice but hadn't fallen yet are now down. One fell on our roof after the storm was over. It's really not bad but here I am with the summer depression and the thoughts are going through my head. I can't call my mom and DEMAND that she help. I am a grown woman and it's not her job to help me. She offered to help but obviously things got in the way. I'm just a bit depressed that being the only child of a single mother I have no one else to call on. My grandparents are dead. My Aunt and Uncle are busy helping my cousin. That just leaves me. My husband of course will be stuck with most of the work. He can't do it alone though. I suppose I'll have the older boys watch the younger boys in the house while we go and do the work. It's completely do-able and I know many people do things this way....I just really am feeling the loss of family...family I never had. I'm glad that my children will have each other. I never missed having siblings as a kid, but I sure miss them now.