I am up, watching the sun rise, thinking about dd having this procedure done today. And I am feeling a little anxious. Not only do I not want her to have to go thru such things, but she is a FIGHTER, and I mean struggles mightily against anything she does not want to do. When she had to have blood taken, she started screaming as the nice lab tech lady came into the room, with empty hands. So I can imagine how it will be as they approach her just to talk to her and have her lay on the table.

I will be looking at pictures online this morning, preparing her as best I can. What I really need is for the Prince of Peace to flood both of us with His peace that passes understanding! I will do the best I can to get her ready and support her thru it, and rest in Him to help us.

My life has been a complete whirlwind since the beginning of winter. We moved into a fixer-upper, unbeknownst to us, finding all sorts of hidden problems that required all sorts of yet-to-be-learned techniques. And my dc were very little when we bought it, so I had almost no time to work on it. And now, here we are, needing to sell our house, and I am working almost non-stop to do my part. Plus the normal household things, which are sort-of getting done, plus anticipating moving ourselves, and the list goes on and on. There are times when it seems to wash over my head, and the panic or dismay starts to rise, and I have to run to the Lord's arms and rest in Him, finding my peace and joy in Him, in the midst of way too much to handle on my own. When I get overwhelmed, I stop and remind myself that He is with me, holding me in His arms, that He is able to do abundantly more than I can ask or imagine, that He is doing a good work in me that He is faithful to complete, and that one day this house will be finished and sold.

It is just hard to have to look at the LONG list of things to do to get it ready to sell, finding more and more little things, but I do have to say - the hardest things on my list are done!

Ok, if you have read this far, I am impressed. All of those words helped, just getting them out on "paper". This has by far been the busiest, most hectic, most demanding of patience, physical strength and endurance, time in my life, and I know the Lord is teaching me to persevere. Because the testing of my faith produces perseverance, that I may be mature and complete, lacking nothing.

I just read a booklet about stress from "Our Daily Bread" - and one verse jumped out at me : When anxiety was great within me, Your consolation brought joy to my soul (Ps. 94:19) Hallelujah! I must rest in Him, and find His peace and consolation, and let them bring joy to my soul.